PreMadona Diaries

Blissful.....

2011-08-15T10:01:00.000-07:00

Seems like a year ago I last visited this portal of words..In reality it has only been 5 months...The year has gone by so swiftly i must say... Just yesterday i was turning 25...I though it would be the year when all marvelous things would happen to me.. Indeed i have had some triumphant events but something still seemed to be lacking... why is it that we always tend to overlook what's right in front of us and focus all our energy on what we wish to be .....life is funny....

Just last year i had a best friend... and i mean a real best friend.. someone i confided in.. told everything... down to the t.. today.. we no longer speak..why... hmmm i would rather not go i into the clear-cut details, but it's a rather trivial reason..The reason I'm noting this is to prove a point... i can never understand why give so much appreciation to what we have , why some bonds which tend to look so durable can sever in the blink of an eye...

We never know when what we had today will be taken away from us... i have tried to embrace whatever happens to me... good or bad... its all a lesson, which by the way some of us refuse to learn from... not everthing in life is meant to be all fairy tales and glamour..

There are times we need to realise that we have to strive and work hard to get past those occurences... rejoice in the good moments and the bad for that matter...There are reasons for them.... not just coincidences..

After considerate talks and hearing of the book "The Alchemist" i decided to give it a read... no i did not go out to buy it but found this website with free ebooks... "thanks to google"...Indeed it was a wonderful book.. soooo inspirational.. soooo moving.. ..i think that was all i needed to finally realise that not only will disappointments come my way but it was up to me and me alone to decide whether or not i wanted to sit and stay in the situation or pick up and go... i chose pickup and go by the way...

Even if life is not 100% better.. it has improved... i no longer linger on negative thoughts.. at least not for too long..i definitely sleep better, have less headaches.. and i can surely say that i have had more fun this year than in tha last 3 and i'm try new things.. It feels damn good...

So... after all my ranting to whomever is gonna read this post... it's a rainy day... even if i hate the rain... maybeee it will bring me a few good surprises ...:)

Have a good week....revoir :

New beginnings ???

2011-03-07T10:44:00.000-08:00

How many times will we have a new beginning? How many times will we tell ourselves that we will change something about our daily lives in other to accomplish something better? In this lifetime maybe you and i have both said that about a million times without even realising it. However; no threat. I think that's acceptable. We come across some unplanned circumstances, and as life is such, we need to learn to work around them or work with them. So disregard whether or not someone tells you yh yh you always say that.. It's yours and no one else's obligation to decide whether or not you are actually ready to follow completely through with a set plan. Life sends us trials and if we possess inadequate strength and courage to fight them we fail, the phrase "today I'm making a fresh start" will cease to be part of our vocabulary.

Success is achieved only by striving.. :)

Lost in the pages of our minds

2011-02-18T05:03:00.000-08:00

Ever felt like everything was against you?? I've been there, plenty a times, but in reality I'm the one against myself..

Even though we constantly tell ourselves to change, our mind frames, our actions, sometimes that is easier said than done.. especially when we are surrounded by negative forces.. Yes we try, and all goes as planned for a while, but sometimes it only takes one simple aspect to displace almost all the grasp you hold on that one thought.. and the cycle begins all over again ...

I sympathize with bipolar/moody persons, for I too as I am one.. I understand ..sometime we just cant help ourselves..

In any case, we bounce back, and all is well with the world again... untilll....

Have a great weekend people, and enjoy this post courtesy of http://positive-thoughts.typepad.com/

Focused less on what you need to do and more on what you need to be.
How many times have we talked about all the things we believe or want, but deep down we were unwilling to integrate the qualities that would attract them?
The following ten keys are guidelines. Read them and find ways to integrate them into your own life. You’ll notice that each one starts with the word be—for example, Be clear. That’s because they’re focused less on what you need to do and more on what you need to be.
Be Clear. Clarity is one of the most important keys to manifesting what you want. If your thoughts aren’t clear, then the Universe , doesn’t know how or what to give you. If there’s something you’ve already determined for yourself, write a list of every detail you can think of, every attribute and characteristic that defines the goal. Look at this list often and add to it. Focus on the details as clearly as you can and imagine them in your mind.
Be Open. Now you’re being asked to be open to anything the Universe may send in your direction that either amplifies or clarifies the desired goal. In reality, they are supportive. Once you’ve clearly defined the desired experience, you then open yourself to every possible variation. It’s as if you declare to the Universe: “This or more.”
Be Willing. Your willingness to observe, absorb, and then release everything that comes into your consciousness will help determine how easily it flows into your life. Begin by observing what you desire and asking the following questions: Is it something that will serve more than your own self-interests? Does it genuinely inspire your heart?
Be Happy. The more you realize that you deserve perfect joy and accept it, the more you become the kind of teacher the world needs most.
Be Focused. Stay focused on what’s behind the goal rather than on the goal itself. Your mind doesn’t always know what’s best for you and a strict, unyielding mind-set might attract something that doesn’t serve your highest good, so opening to a flowing focus makes sense.
Be Expectant. Always expect the best! Affirm that everything you desire will come to you easily and naturally. Energy flows where attention goes. If you’re focused on creating something but your inner thoughts are fixed on failure, that’s what you’ll attract. We’ve all heard the saying “Expect a miracle.” This is very good advice, because what you truly expect will always be yours.
Be Energetic. The higher the impulse, the more energetic the response. In other words, your energy usually increases when you ask for what your soul really wants. Your heart is always a better barometer of what Heaven is choosing to add to your life.
Be Positive. If you’re negative about what you’re trying to attract, the Universe will interpret your negativity as not wanting.
Be True. Being true is the same as being honest—something that’s required if you want to successfully manifest your heart’s desire. You have to be honest with yourself.
Be Grateful. Gratitude is perhaps the most important key to attracting everything you deserve. It’s the activating force that Source can’t deny, and the Universe bows to a heart filled with Divine appreciation. When someone is grateful for a gift you’ve offered or a small act of kindness you’ve shown, it makes you want to give even more. The Universe works in a similar way.
By James F. Twyman

Aqua.....My Time

2011-01-28T15:58:00.001-08:00

For once bossip has something good to say.. always with the hating...

MEANWHILEEEE...

Happy Friday, Bossip Fam! Lovely Water Bearers, please know you were not forgotten! Last week we fell into the Aquarian cycle of the zodiac and just as this sign is known for being unpredictable, should we thank them for the onslaught of amazing weather we’ve had in the last few weeks? We are now in “Age of Aquarius,” so through these times, it’s been said that this astral sign will be the leaders of the zodiacs! Trendsetters with fearless ambition and an unrelenting sense of responsibility – that’s always been their nature but in their time of leadership things have to change! The need for it is great and never taken lightly, so the Aquarian will be working diligently to come into the person they strive to be – starting with whatever spiritual changes they feel need to take place, realigning their values and expectations along with solidifying their goals and aspirations in terms of their career, family life and the like. In this time, Aquarians mean business and they will stop at nothing to be successful at carrying out all their amazing, genius-like ideas they posses in the vast landscape of their head space.

The Water Bearer is known for being “eccentric” or original with avant garde style, quirky, sophisticated, quit-witted and hilarious! What’s possibly funnier than their jokes is their laughter, it’s infectious and when they let out a big, hearty chuckle, you can’t resist the urge to laugh out loud with them, even if the joke’s on you. Now, even though Aquarians are funny and fun to be around, they are often brutally honest to a fault, so if you don’t want the truth, don’t ask them because it hurts … when you ask an Aquarian. Their words are very honest, calculated and direct – they leave no room for misinterpretation. This is why they’re often accused of being emotionless which is not the case, they’re driven by logic. They’re also hugely opinionated, so once they’ve made up their mind, they’re not budging and it would be in your best interest to agree because they will go to war to convince you that they’re right! If they can’t (after a long court-room stlye debate) they will respect your opinion and agree to disagree because the Water Bearer’s heart and intentions are always genuine and they like to keep their many friends and family in a happy space at all times.

Loving an Aquarian is truly and adventure! They will challenge your thinking on a multitude of levels and, more importantly, be the driving force behind turning thoughts and ideas into reality! The Aquarian is so easy to fall in love with because their eyes are often dreamy and intensely focused when they’re interested. In fact, because their eyes, gazes and stares are so intense, they often overuse them so don’t be surprised that a lot of them wear glasses … nerdy but somehow stylish ones. That loving gaze they have makes one feel as though you’re the only two in the room, you know … that swirling feeling! That swoony, swirly, butterfly feeling carries over into the bedroom with this sign, so be ready for a very intense, yet, comfortable experience. They’re not always in it for physical gain, it’s all mental for them. They are one of the most devoted, committed partners one could ever ask for but if you’re loving an Aquarian, you better keep it fun and interesting! Don’t forget that the Aquarian’s brain is like the ocean – you can’t see where it ends, it’s always in motion and all that space is filled with so many thoughts and ideas; this is why curiosity and boredom tends to get the best of them from time to time. Again, keep it interesting and always be open to try new things! And please don’t try to make them jealous because they think a little differently and in doing this, you might just be reminding them of all the reasons why they want something new and fresh. So, folks, if you have the privilege of loving on an Aquarian, remember intellect will forever trump emotion with these guys, so be smart and keep them thinking!

My best friend is an Aquarius and she tends to be a little on the selfish side. She’s always looking for what will benefit her in any situation instead of supporting others. I love her to death though! She always keeps it real and she will never lie to me about anything. We’ve been friends for a very long time and she will always be a dear friend of mine but I can’t talk to her about everything. If I have an idea for business or something along those lines, she’s the first person I call because she knows everybody and will help me through the process. She’s awesome that way! - Kay, 31

I’m an Aquarius and I get called mean, rude, insensitive. I just don’t deal with nonsense and foolishness, you know what I mean? We can talk and all that but when you start trying to play me or talk like I’m beneath you, it’s a wrap! I don’t do well with crying and all that either. Most people say that I’m a difficult person to get to know but I don’t let everyone in and I’m a very private person. Once I do let you in though, it’s forever. You got a friend for life! - Steve, 35

I’m a Libra and my boyfriend is an Aquarius. I’ve read a lot of times that we’re cosmic soul mates. I love him in a way that I’ve never loved anyone else. I like that we can talk about everything. He’s always willing to communicate and it’s never an overly emotional argument or anything because I think we’re both pretty logical. I like that he gives me my space and I don’t have a problem giving him his either. It’s a good thing because it’s balanced and it allows us time to miss each other. The sex with him is so amazing. We have amazing sex. Some nights we don’t even do it, we’ll just make out and kiss each other for hours and fall asleep. But when it goes down, it goes down. He’s a freak and I love it. - April, 29

Shouts out to all the Aquarians! Happy birthday, Water Bearers!

Positive thought

2011-01-24T07:05:00.000-08:00

It's a new day new week, and almost a new month.. :)

I have made it a ritual to follow a website/facebook page since late last year, and it has been a great eyeopener for me. I had a tendency to be lackadaisical at times, but since reading these posts, that word has been rapidly eradicated from my vocab.. and to share please read below. Also not that this is not an original post source: http://positive-thoughts.typepad.com/positive-thoughts/2011/01/living-life-in-the-present-moment-.html

Living life in the present moment .

I’ve discovered that I have greater success with living life in the present moment when I remove judgment from what I’m experiencing. Rather than making an event a bad or a good experience, I find myself being in the “isness” of the moment; that is, what I’m feeling is much more helpful than why it isn’t what I think it should be. This is called allowing rather than resisting what is. Even if I wish to change the moment, it’s far more useful to allow it without any judgment and then notice everything I can about it.
The more I stay out of my good-thought/bad-thought routine, the more I’m able to just be with it. I love to observe the instant without any judgment. Birds simply allow whatever comes their way, no matter if the wind picks up or the rain comes, and I work at being like one of those fabulous creatures. The way I do so is to ask myself this question: “What’s happening right here and right now, independent of my opinion about it?” Then I notice all that I can take in—the sky, the wind, the sounds, the light, the insects, the temperature, the people, the judgments…everything. I stay free of opinions and just let myself be. In these moments, I don’t need an excuse or an explanation for anything.
I try to keep in mind that whenever I react against any form that life takes in the present moment, I’m treating the now as some kind of impediment or even as my enemy.
Be without judgment and you’ll never feel the need for some tiresome excuse to use up your precious seconds, such as “I’m too old” or “It will take a long time” or “It will be too difficult.” Instead, you’ll be in the now, welcoming your constant present-moment companion, your Source of being, which knows nothing of excuses and doesn’t know how to be anyplace but here, now. As one of my spiritual predecessors, Dale Carnegie, once wrote: “One of the most tragic things I know about human nature is that all of us tend to put off living. We are all dreaming of some magical rose garden over the horizon—instead of enjoying the roses that are blooming outside our windows today.”
Become one in the present moment with all of the roses that show up in your life. Stay present: every second, every minute, and every hour. Every day of your life is full of present moments of infinite value. You won’t find God yesterday or tomorrow—your Source is always only here, now.

..Positive Vibes allll the wayy.

2011-01-05T16:59:00.000-08:00

All i have to say is that I absolutely lovee progress; which is what have been in my first week of the 2011.. so i'm all happy and very proud of me.. I have come a long way and am continuing this path, so no frowns on this face ..:)

Hope things are working out in favour for you guys so far..

peeacee

Tis the new year.. uh huh..

2011-01-03T14:12:00.000-08:00

And so another year has come and gone gone gone on its not so merry way.. I think a vast amount of us will agree and say that 2010 was in fact one of the most toilsome years of the decade...but we of course can't forget the perks (if few or many) which somehow found ways of following through.

On a more personal note it was a year filled with trials and tribulations. I lost, i gained,i had many a change in my life.. many.., i hurt.. and so on .. but at the end of the day.. the only thing that really matters is that i came out on top a very strong and more open minded individual. I learnt my lessons, i took advice and put them into effect, which were quite rewarding and i am remarkably thankful for it all....

They say if you keep looking back into your past,you're just gonna be stuck there,hence no personal growth will come your way and you will constantly blame everyone else but yourself for everything which will go wrong ..(and wrong turns will indeed sneak up on you).. but you just have to suck it up,and put all the effort you possible can to make things better for you and ultimately everyone else(even if you may not realise it).

So to all I bid a wonderful 2011, may you be blessed with strength and courage to pull through tough situations,wisdom to know when to choose right from wrong (which is always btw)..:)...may you strive and put your all into all aspects of your life worth working for.I wish all good health,spiritual,physical and of course positive mental growth; and always remember that you will have bad days,things may not always go your way but it is up to you to make the best of it,and seek alternative ways to make things work in your favour....:).

I received a daily quote today and i will bid you adieu with it.

"The height of your accomplishments will equal the depth of your convictions" William F. Scolavino

yh yh yh,,,,,update

2010-07-03T17:09:00.000-07:00

heeeeelooooooooo blogosphere.....(word?)...lol...watt itt doo ?? been a while man .. like months.. soo whats been goin on with me hmmm .. same old same old.. it that time of the year again yup yup...CARNIVALLLLL....again i'll be playin mas.. yay me.. not really psyched though need to have a moment with maself yoo... its two weeks away n i just want it to come n goo go go .. soo meanwhile chec out ma bands costume.. http://redunlimited.net/ .... enjoyss

Evaluating Haiti’s Pact With The Devil (France & The U.S.) « Hip-Hop Wired

2010-02-17T07:20:00.000-08:00

Came across this post today on the web..thought i might share it.

Evaluating Haiti’s Pact With The Devil (France & The U.S.) « Hip-Hop Wired

24...

2010-02-04T07:11:00.000-08:00

Hi stranger,we meet again. Yesterday was my 24th birthday..YAY ME.....
everyone says am getting old..haha...i like to think that the ones who make such comments are just too young and still stuck in the am a child phase...yh yh .. i did nothing special really.Just came to work, and went home early because i was a lil sick...yh i know.. of all the days in the is body decides to give up on me temp on the one day that's supposed to be dedicated to me.. sighhh .. ohh welll ..

anyways...don't really hv much to say today soo..laters

...Better off being Mannequins...Don't you think ??

2010-01-26T05:24:00.000-08:00

We're 26 days into the new year already .. but hello blog..

Someone can only go through so much in one lifetime don't' you think ?A little too many bad recurrences will only break and destroy even the most sweetest person on the face of the planet, but unfortunately that's the reality of life.

Even if you may not have been the most innocent and naive of persons,eventually your strategic plan towards some persons will change,possibly leading you to become the most coldest at hearts.But what are feelings anyways??Rite?

Reality check people, is there something as being too nice?? at this point in time I'm leaning more towards yes than the no meter and i for one think sum one should pick and choose precisely who or what falls in the category"oh, I'm going to be nice to you" and who does not.Just to be on the safe side of course and not as a result of revenge or something drastic ..:)..But does that make you a bad person??

Life's complicated, why?? We will never know ..The age old saying goes karma will pay you tenfolds what it owes you ..or something of the sort...but what about the innocent persons that karma pays visit too?? That i would love to obtain an answer for... Such is life, and a majorly unfair one might i add, but here falls the term "you take what you get". I don't think you can prevent the inevitable and if only we really could see into the future we might have been able to keep a heads up of what boulders we need to keep a look out for...but it ain't so my dear friend...

Meanwhile i will continue to ponder on what i will never know...

..mistle toe is soo cliche..

2009-12-10T07:12:00.000-08:00

hello blog... its been a while since u were last served with sum pampering n wat not.....but its all good now.. rite..:)..meanwhile nothing really relevant has happened since we last had our lil "chat"..just same old same old irrelevant occurrences.. which by the way i try my hardest not to take notice of.. i think its working quite well though ..

i feel more relaxed lately.. n carefree.. (about certain aspects of course)...

So the Xmas season is coming on ....secret i don't really do the Christmas thing.. don't go all out n wat not n place a million lights up in my house or on that huge ficus tree out front.. (those are fire hazards did you know)..yh....tome its just another day(with a few minor adjustments(food n rum.. n ppl )......

but Ive decided to spend three days down south n with my fam ...n the remaining 11 days of offs by myself thank you very much. ME time, get sum much needed outdoorsy time.. heck if i played golf i would do that...or i could jus run around on the grass ..that could work to i suppose.. But im anticipating beach,and sleep...aloneee...nothing more.. n maybe sum spa time..

So till sumthing interesting comes up..(highly doubt that will be soon lol).. we shall see again .. toddles

xoxo mimi

Alas! they had been friends in youth; but whispering tongues can poison truth.

2009-10-30T11:49:00.000-07:00

One thing almost everyone will come across is a scandal monger.

You know that feeling when its apparent that there are eyes piercing your very soul, like every time your foot touches the ground or the simple shhh escapes your tongue someone or should i say something is in the vicinity, and they just don't belong. yh yh .. i know it happens every day .. BUTT.. don't worry its just a temporary thing, and those walking on eggshell days will soon come to an end. well hopefully.

In the case it does not, just remind yourself that that thing, person or w.e has nothing on you,they have nothing that you want and its just a minor bump on your way to that place of peace and comfort,and you have nothing to worry your pretty little head about.

Green eyed monsters, Medusa w.e are just insecure about themselves, they lack virtues, and they never grow out of their ugly shells.NEVER..

soo .. put a smile on ur face, n u know..live you life

I feel inspired.

2009-10-19T11:54:00.000-07:00

Im always writng out of randomness, so today i decided to try sumthing new after reading this post for a fellow blogger ( http://www.davinaleefilms.blogspot.com/ ) .
this is my first inspired haiku..and i must admit i enjoyed writng it.. pretty simple n clean..

Title: Morning came

like lillies afloat
pure and white on waters clear
innocent as is

a new day begins
free of negative auras
radiant skies came

wave to the skies
as the sun above shines bright
and stars say goodbye

Random

2009-10-17T18:00:00.001-07:00

You know wats aggravating?? Ever decided out of mere boredom, n cable has nothing interesting on( which is almost always the case) to watch a movie online?? i know you have so don't answer that, but you're on ur merry way looking for the appropriate site, n then it gives u a ton of links ( well not really a ton but w.e) to go to a dif site, n then u hv to decide which is best based on viewer ratings n bla bla.. yh soo u know u got the almost perfect one u do ur usual clicking away, n then it goes, video hosting is expensive n bla bla bla, please prove you're human by clicking the link.. oh yh n no offence to robots.. lol .. like wth ..i swear human beings think up the most random things.

you know wat else is annoying,huh?? INFOMERCIALS.. goood gosh ..i swear there are sum beyond ridiculous infomercials, and yeah there are some pretty good ones too lets not forget, & yh yh i give the props to the persons tryin to bring their great idea to life, but no offence some of them are beyond ridiculous, or should i say just more ways to get human being to be lazy.. .. but w.e

From the House of Adam

2009-10-15T16:01:00.000-07:00

Interesting dialogue i came a cross in a book i was reading last nite.. whats the moral??How Many more False costumes wil llust have to wear before everyone else figures out what we have?Our sex drives promises everything and delivers nothing it offers only the briefest of pleasures and gives the most lasting of pain And Human Beings are so weak that they endow this meaningless physical act with all the emotional qualities of fullfillment and purpose that can be found in every other aspect of daily life.... And those who cannot escape their own bodies,those souls who never escape, are doomed to spend eternity in a lake of fire... ......

A lil more personal

2009-10-14T08:54:00.001-07:00

..You wanna know what kills slowly?? Vulnerability. Yep. regardless of the fact that it opens to more opportunities, on the downside, you're just putting you self out there; and without any protection...the most jagged of rocks will be thrown your way, and mess you up.

So..in the case you do put on that suit of armor, make sure that is it well suited for defenses.

I came across a post one of my friend's blog yesterday.. n it really hit me,and right now there is one crooked line i am not opt to straightening out yet alone cross. You have to know when to put on that adult cap,whether or not you are not ready t put it on. In the long run, the trophy at the end of track is yours.

At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don’t keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That’s how we’re made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines… that are way too dangerous to cross .

Rain and a little Hail, or maybe more..nontheless heres my take.

2009-09-23T06:47:00.000-07:00

Evidently speaking, the worlds current state seems to be heading in the wrong direction as a crash and burn situation for respective and imperative sectors health and economy continues to arise; and unfortunately, despite the numerous attempts to help eradicate those concepts the expected results can't seem to be achieved.

What exactly does that mean for the human race right now? Good Question you might think. Dreams, hopes aspirations and livelihood on a whole is at a standstill sort of. The younger generations in particular are now paying the price of an inevitable era uncertain of what their futures have in store for them.

Jobless, many of them are resorting to shameful and illegal activities to help sustain their lives, families across the globe are scraping their last dollars off the floor to help maintain their regular "lavished" lifestyles, children sit and watch as their innocence are slowly being stripped from them, and unable to do anything they endure the bitter price.

Small and let’s not forget those third world countries continue to suffer as poverty continues to slowly creep its way into homes, if one exists. The Health pandemic grows worse for some as they are unable to seek medical treatment for their contained illnesses. As the globes populations continue to diminish some say it's the end of the world. Yes, but let’s not forget this concept has been in existence for generations before and will continue to live on for generations to come. This is just a reminder to all those who seem to be forgetting.

Although many efforts are being made by authority figures and other persons to provide support and help, we as a race need to play our respective roles to ensure that a resolution is quickly met. After all it always seems to have sunshine after the rain.

Written by
Menellia Valcent
September 23rd 2009.
11:52.a.m.

woyee

2009-09-15T08:34:00.000-07:00

...bla bla blaa

random babling.. on n on..

2009-08-23T10:17:00.000-07:00

sighh...i am soo bored, as usual..nun to do. no where to go .. n bla bla.. on the up side though it's month end.. yay finally .. i so want this yr to be over.. like ... come on stop stalling already .. i feel like this has thus far been one of the least eventful years of my life... and if such took place 1/4 of them had sum negative vibe attached to it.. sooo I'm pondering whether or not i should move out... if the inevitable happens then.. heck i will be runnin out of this place in a jiff...i am soo sick of certain ppl actions.. and they are too irresponsible to put 2 and 2 together.. like wtf .. chupse..

anyways... enuff of that.. soo amiclubwear had a hugeeee sale.. n im bummed. cuz i cant get shit.. .bit me that would be better. .those shoes are soo effin sexy .. www.amiclubwear.com and im now seeing www.forever21.com with sum superrr cute ones.. lawdd... sighh again .. i seriously need to get my life back on track like noowww.. cuz i feel like it's goin nowhere.. nowhere.. dum dee da.w.e..
now since im bored..ima go browse online then sleep.. its Sunday .. dreading Monday morning. in sooo many ways..ohh yh,, the ultimate showdown is onnn tomorrow. according to sum ppl .. rolling eyes.. w.e..get a life beyotch..and grow up.. bla bla is all im hearing..

toodles.. enjoy ur week

another sighhhhhhhhhhhh

2009-08-13T16:25:00.000-07:00

finally i have something to talk about..Although I'm on the ticked off side of the scale...I'm gonna keep the language on a polite tone...sooooooooooooo I'm really disappointed in this young woman who left me in charge of her work, to enjoy her vacation. Honestly i do not have a problem with helping out, but when technology unfortunately seems to just vanish into thin air the moment you step out of the door is all right Rude..the worse part is that she said she was goin to help me in whatever way she could via email.. which is acceptable. i mean if i left my entire work load for someone, i would send follow up emails at least every other day to check on its status..hmmmmm...not even an i in message...ohhh well ....we shall see the real me in about 2 weeks.

On another note.. i feel like my life is moving in sloww mo..like nothing significant is happening, soo sick of this work home ritual...i need a career ..i mean i need to start working on something funnn...hehe...

random

2009-08-11T08:41:00.000-07:00

wow...been a while... well i dont have anything to say really ..well not on here at least ..hehe.. sooo im jus givin my page sum love.... LOVEEE.....wat that ?

mimi

fashion..

2009-07-29T09:50:00.000-07:00

jus came across the site...loveee it..

http://www.fashion.net/fashion/

the aftermath

2009-07-29T09:44:00.000-07:00

okk..sooo..yh Ive been quite a bit lazy to post sum so ima make this brief..lol..
so cval was FUNNNNNNNNNNNNN it rained..lol...luckily i didn't get e cold..so thank god for that..and now my live goes on.....hehe

Fuck RED!!!

2009-07-16T16:59:00.000-07:00

i am so disappointed right now.From day one that effin band which is supposed to have mastered the art of organization,has been givin us problems for our costumes.I went to get my costume today,spent a whole 30 mins on a line, verified my receipt,then went to collect..and alas, my name is not on the list.like wat the F is up with that.now i have to return on saturday..Yo...i am gonna get Efed up in there if thats not cleared.for real,cause thats pure BS....

I will never jump with that band again.

HAWTTTTTTTT...

2009-07-16T13:37:00.000-07:00

sooooo...today i was in Lenny Kravitz music mood...he is soooooooo fuckin sexyy...damnn..i would do him any day , anytime,anywhere..lol..lol...

i have to go collect my so called costume today..in a while actually ..so im killin time at work for a while....i am yet to be suprised...we shall see how that turns out.. i hope theres no hussle and bussle..cuz i hate that..chupse.....

ohh yh ..so monday nite i customised my page fonts and colours..lol..i jus chose like random colours and i must admit even if its outta my league it kinda has that retro cool look ot it.. ima go brighter soon .. lol

toddles.

All's well

2009-07-13T18:53:00.001-07:00

SO i have missed three days of cartoon therapy..always makes me relax and i guess that part of me will never die...hmmmm...ohh well.. I'm home now drinking a cup of hot cocoa...with the tele watching me... the cleaner is playing rite now....i think its a really cool series so i keep stealing glances at it...im actually procrastinating the inevitble..lol..lol...prepare for work tomorrow..I'm one who does not like waking up in the morning thinking and trying to figure out wat I'm gonna wear and w.e ...so i always prep at nite... guess im a planner ohh well...

sooo the offfficial countdown is onn...yay..by this time next week i wud be jus entering my house from playin mas.. i honestly cannot wait ..i really want it to come and go so i can get on with my life... need to get that back on tract and it seems to be picking up .. slowly but surely....and I'm seeing new positive ventures awaiting me ... and im soo looking forward to them...

meanwhile my sis ended up in the hospital on Saturday nite.. so i had a very hectic weekend..worry streaked....but i thank the lord that she is alright now, since they allowed her to go home today...so im happy about that part....i will continue to pray for her... my family and he world liek i always do because everyone no matter their lifestyle deserves prayers..

so im gonna get back to my routine and sneak a lil cartoon b4 bed...so i can sleep peacefully .. :)

bonsoir..
mimi

random babble...lol

2009-07-11T07:01:00.000-07:00

this weekend is already goin dreary.....ughhhh..sooo we went clubbin last nite and this is the first time i can honestly say i did not enjoy not bit of it..sighhhh..so much for therapy...ohh welll...hope tonight plays out a lil or a lot better....

soo i have been listenin to this song by Incubus over and over..*Dig*....i love it..but im beginning to think its becomin depressing a lil..keepin me in the mood..soo..yh..
i jus redyed my hair red like 2 mins ago...lol..idle...lol..lol

ok i will sop with the constant babbling now...toodles..

Still Erratic

2009-07-08T06:23:00.000-07:00

I don't know why, but i always seem to put other ppl's needs above mine....maybe I'm just too nice...
So....i have been feeling like the ultimate robot lately...work is becoming less and less something i look forward to.I feel like i have become underachieved, like there is no purpose to why i do what i do anymore..i don't have a cinch of liking to the job i swear.....but for sum selfless reason .. i have not done something about it i.e. find another job that falls in my court...

I am not confused..no i am not .. i know exactly what it is i want..but i just don't have the backbone to chase it right now....i need sum in spiration , sum motivation...sumthing to get me off my feet..and it jus isnt coming....

can you say sighhhhhhhhhhh

On another note...the big event is 11 days away..and i am not really prepared for it...chupse.....i dunno...im jus down in the dust lately ...

Heck i stilll havent bene to rehersals after a month and a half which is very defiant of me....since when it comes to responsibilities i am a conformist....but rebellion has been kicking in,in strong dosage lately...i think i need a new atmosphere,new beginnings...sumthing....and i really hope it comes soon ..

mimi

i feel ohh so inervated

2009-07-03T11:56:00.000-07:00

okkkk...soo i have absolutely no clue wat is goin on with my body today....im feeling soo weary, i lack focus, and not even music seems to be providing sum sort of solace to me which is soo erratic because i always work better when i hv my companion...

i keep dozing in and out,keep tuning out,and on top of that i have gotten hardly any work into my system today....i jus want to lay on my bed right now n wake up god knows when....on the up side though today is Friday so i dont hv to worry about getting up early tomorrow morning for work. sooo im still here tying to think up alternatives to keep me awake, which is one of the reasons am posting this entry....

i think my body has become quite annoyed with the atmosphere so its beginning to act up.I for one am tired of it, too ritualistic, and its beginning to make me lazy, n brain dead..

sighhhh

.....

2009-06-30T07:41:00.000-07:00

I have not been this upset in a very longggg time.. (&& i say this in the most calming voice rite now)....i just had a reality jolt....and i am sick....sick ...sick ... of this 7 year on goin bullshit...which apparently no matter how many alternative ways it has been tackled with ... it will never change unless the center of it wants to change the situation .... i have cried,i have had sleepless nites, i have had headaches,(which by the way i still have)...i have missed school,i have gone through HELL and back and back again for ungrateful persons whom is supposed to be called family members.. but this morning.. i give up on .... and it honestly brings me to tears to say that (I'm sorry but no matter how hard i try to hold it back especially since I'm at work, i cant)

I think its time that i stopped trying to fix everyone Else's troubles,trying to change things so they could work out in the best interest of everyone, n most importantly stopped taking care of everyone Else but me... i have reached breaking point... and I'm sick of always pretending that my world is smiles, n unicorns because it really isn't..unfortunately for me...and dammit if i wannt to cry all day i Will ... n i think that's exactly wat i will do .. ( and yh i just strayed, n went mind blanked)

......tbc

RIP Michael Jackson ... YOU WILL SURELY BE MISSED

2009-06-26T07:33:00.000-07:00

In Remembral of MICHAEL JACKSON: see below an article i took from his official website.

http://www.michaeljackson.com/

Sony Comments on the Passing of Michael Jackson

NEW YORK, NY – June 25, 2009 – Michael Jackson, one of the most widely beloved entertainers and profoundly influential artists of all-time, leaves an indelible imprint on popular music and culture. Commenting on his passing, Sir Howard Stringer, Chairman, CEO and President, Sony Corporation, said: "Michael Jackson was a brilliant troubadour for his generation, a genius whose music reflected the passion and creativity of an era. His artistry and magnetism changed the music landscape forever. We have been profoundly affected by his originality, creativity and amazing body of work. The entire Sony family extends our deepest condolences to his family and to the millions of fans around the world who loved him." Rolf Schmidt-Holtz, CEO, Sony Music Entertainment, said: "Michael Jackson's unsurpassed artistry and beloved music brought joy to every corner of the world. We join today with his millions of fans in expressing our profound sadness and we offer our deepest condolences to his family and loved ones. It was a true privilege for all of us in the Sony Music family to work with one of the most talented superstars in the history of music. We will miss him greatly." Martin Bandier, Chairman & CEO of Sony/ATV Music Publishing, said: "Michael was the kind of amazing talent that comes along once in a lifetime. He was an incredible recording artist, an insightful businessman, an unmatched performer, and a true icon. To all of us at Sony/ATV Music Publishing, he was also a trusted and passionate partner, who was very proud of our accomplishments. He will be dearly missed. We wish his children and entire family our deepest condolences." Five of Jackson's solo albums – "Off the Wall," "Thriller," "Bad," "Dangerous" and "HIStory," all with Epic Records, a Sony Music label – are among the top-sellers of all time. During his extraordinary career, he sold an estimated 750 million records worldwide, released 13 No.1 singles and became one of a handful of artists to be inducted twice into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame. The Guinness Book of World Records recognized Jackson as the Most Successful Entertainer of All Time and "Thriller" as the Biggest Selling Album of All Time. Jackson won 13 Grammy Awards and received the American Music Award's Artist of the Century Award. Michael Jackson started in the music business at the age of 11 with his brothers as a member of the Jackson 5. In the early 1980s, he defined the art form of music video with such ground-breaking videos as "Billie Jean," "Beat It" and the epic "Thriller." Jackson's sound, style and dance moves inspired subsequent generations of pop, soul, R&B and hip-hop artists.

Stars are soooo wrong right now

2009-06-25T06:11:00.000-07:00

Guten Morgen......OK so really I'm writing this post cause i feel like I'm obliged to ..lol...sorry ...my mind doesn't seem to have any thing interesting on it at the moment soooooooooooo...sorrrryyy..hehe

oh yh ...so lately Ive been getting sum reallly annoying horoscope readings about love ..n its round the corner, or sumone i didn't think had it for me soooooo bad really does n its the best time to communicate with ppl whom i hv turned down the hello/hello dial (i.e. lovers) with ..lalalalallalala...laa etc......:l ...like wtf....its it gonna happen jus happen already...and honestly right now i don't want my astrological reading to be pointing in that direction ...jus wish it would change already....

meanwhile duty calls.....work time...toodles...enjoy ur day...

xxxx mimi

Go Bury Yourself PLEASEEE!!!

2009-06-22T11:47:00.000-07:00

UGHHHH..I am beyonddd disgusted right now.. its amazing how ppl unknowingly reveal their true selves to the world...rather...and it's times like these you wish they were strangers you could easily disengage... but alas .. such is not the case...unfortunately i hv met sum reallly FAKE ppl in my oh so young life..and im kinda happy it happened at such a tender age that way I learn my list of hippocrytes and backstabbing,jerks that I wont have to deal with in the latter part of my life.. sooooo i have this ACQUAINTANCE.....whom i met a few months ago...and apparently they have been wearing this shield of beauty,n truth allll along.. for acts they hv done in the short time that i hv know them, and by their (make the world believe) morals and standards they keep sending out and go ohh soo contrary too.. it has me sick tooo my stomach rite now,and its reallygettin under my skin...CHUSPEE.. because..here you hv someone portraying themselves to the world, the total opposite of what they really are... and you have to sit and watch them get showered by glory ,and wat not... BUTTTT....all i can do is anticipate the day when it alllll backfires and reveal that dead ugly skin underneath...

What about now

2009-06-21T17:52:00.001-07:00

...you know how facebook has those really random and sometimes super weird quizzes that most of its followers including me n maybe you reading this take ..you know to pass time by,or jus out of boredom or curiosity...lol..well i took this one today... here's a look "What kind of mask do you wear?" with the result Beauty.

Your mask is Beauty. You are beautiful inside and out. You aren't too aware of your beauty, although all the people around you are. There are times when you feel like you're wearing a mask, but no one around you can notice the difference with or without it. You may feel vulnerable at times, but you usually get through it. You sometimes wish you had someone to help you through those tough times, but you are always hopeful and don't give up easily. People who first meet you notice your beauty at a glance, but most people notice it when they get to really know you.."....

and i must say i was rather impressed by the result.. and i think its time i began payin a lil bit more self awareness to that..

on another note... i have made the ultimate decision .and have decided to wake up tomorrow mornin, brand new...new..new...did i say NEW..oh yea i did..because it is rather selfish and unfair of me to keep depriving myself of happiness...yh yh .. and i think i allowed myself to remain blinded by ..umm watever..and honestly it is high time i did something about that ...sooo .. its bye bye old menel hello new me...someone once told me i hv a beautiful smile.. and there shouldn't be absolutely anythng which limits it being shown... & before its too late..the time is now. to show it..

lord help me...

2009-06-20T16:29:00.000-07:00

sooo its been officially 2 months and 7 days (not that i was counting.. i just calculated..lol)..since i last saw... hunkky....(:) )....yhh .. sighhh...i dunno its really weird... normally that image would hv been outta my head.. n i have tried everything... n i mean everything..... humanly possible....to forget about it.. but i cant... and I'm beginning to wonder why does stuff like that always happen to me... seriously....its been like 3 frakkin yrs since i last was in a R.....n ..good gosh man....its beginning to get to me... and on top of that .. i hv been gettin these really weird horoscope readings ....(its a daily thing i look up on since i get like a daily mail..)...so wat the heck...i honestly thing i need to get out of her, go on a vacation or something away from all the memoirs...clear my head...and get reacquainted with reality....cause honestly I'm tired of living in this somewat fantasy world.. and i jus want my life back....like rite now......tired of the headaches..

sighhhh ...i am sooo outta my element..

sun,bright coloured bathing suits n more...:)

2009-06-11T07:47:00.000-07:00

sooo ultimate decisions have been made, Ive registered for the vaval,n im now workin out on the body...hehe..gotta look hotter.than i do now..lol..lol..and i finally put my mind at ease over that one situation that has been bothering me for what seemed like centuries...got me sum explanations and sumwat sum closure..so i feel relieved now and can no longer blame myself for any events which took place watsover.

meanwhile today is a holiday..not so yay..jus feels like i stayed home from work today...since i hv to go tomoro...duhhh..but im gonna make the best of it..gonna be showing sum skin, bbq,pool,.w.e the sun is out n i havnt done out sum outside time in a whileeeee...longgg lonnggg time..soo im gonna give it a whirl today..besides i think the house is tired of me moping around in it..lol..

enjoy ur plans for the day..toodles.

...update...

2009-06-07T11:54:00.000-07:00

Wow i didn't realize how long i haven't been on here,jus to browse or even post sumthing ...im sorry ..but havn't been in the right mindset lately ..stuff been goin on ...mixture with my fantasy n real worlds, and i jus cant seem to stop thinkin about a certain sumone... im really beginning to wonder however if its really worth it.. and i hv put together the pros n the cons of the situation n they both tie up... i have really tried to put this pass me but everytime i get to breaking point,sum unforeseen force always seem to put me right smack back to square one... so the ultimate question remains...should i jus give up,give in n just let fate take its course, or should i ...WHATEVAAA.....???

it is takin ever ounce of my will to be strong since i have promised myself that i will not let this lil high school dramatic play take control of my life.. and i intend to keep it that way...unless my wishful thoughts take into course...but like i said its wishful thinkin ...but i guess the inevitable is bound to happen .... right?? right???

on another note, i have gotten a job replacement after the major unexpected happened....but i hv a great boss soo .. im glad she looked after me n found me another one for the time being...and im really thankful for that .

NEEDLESS.......i have worked my ass off over the past year and i think i deserve to enjoy at least one fraction of my paychecks which have alll gone towards a never ending series of bills...seriously..so ive decided that im gonna play mas this year.....which leave the fact that i seriously need to start workin on my career.

in the meantime i think i have played my due of payin attention to my lil baby ..lol..soo im gonna watch television now... toddles.

hmmm....you don't say?

2009-05-27T17:09:00.000-07:00

can you say sighhhhhhhh..welll multiply that by infinity and u will get an idea of how i feel rite now.this morning i received unexpected news from my boss that if i came across any vacancy, i shud apply for the position, because of our biz current situation...no projects have come in for the year as yet so my services had not been used by the company for the year.. i agree with that , no argument here, but i oppose that fact that she waited till the end of the month to let me know that i shud start looking. Not to mention the current job situation here is not too positive so ive been pretty much bummmed for the entire day because u start thinkin oh shate how im i gonna pay my bills, n wat not, and a major unplanned setback on my plans hv taken motion.. and co i not deserve the rite to feel that way?? targeted to persons who may think im being pessimistic rite now, damn you i earned that rite n i deserve to feel bummed for a while, n stuff my ass with double chocolate chipped cookies from subway, n hell if i had vodka n cran rite now i wud be passed out at this moment...so take that , putt it in ur juice box and suckkkk it...

but thats enuff smack talk for one nite, the situation is done,and i refuse to le my life remain stagnant. in fact i hv began doing what i should have been doing a long time ago , and god help me i will be rewarded., because i have confidence n faith in everything i do. im jus feelin down for tonight, but i will be fine, and i assure i will wake up on the rite side of the bed.

toodles.

Got pain???

2009-05-23T13:35:00.000-07:00

I decided to look up what really causes headaches, and if hormonal imbalance has anything to do with it, after i saw an ad for birth control on TV..one of the most interesting n detailed articles are stumbled upon are listed below, and i sure can related to it. Can You??

Not Tonight Dear I Have a Headache...

I was told by a renowned herbalist one time, that he would rather work with a patient with cancer than a patient with a headache, because the cause of cancer is easier to figure out and work with.

He had that opinion perhaps because the most common of all health complaints is a headache. And almost every health condition can have a headache as a symptom.

A headache itself is not a disease but rather a symptom of an underlying health condition or conditions.

Most people have suffered from a short term occasional headache. Usually these types of headaches are caused by: tension, nerves, stress, lack of sleep, too much of a stimulant (such as caffeine) pulled muscles of the neck, misalignment of a vertebra, strained eyes, virus or bacteria, mineral deficiencies, an injury or hormone imbalances.

Many times a natural pain reliever such as: APS II, Tei Fu (topically) or feverfew has been taken by many searching for relief from a Nonrecurring headache.

If, however, you have frequent or rhythmic headaches, they may only permanently be relieved by working on the source of the headache.

There are five main categories of headaches origins.

Toxins

Toxins include dietary, environmental, as well as autointoxication. Autointoxication is a condition in which one or more eliminating systems are not purging waste efficiently and completely. This becomes a poisonous build up that starts to act against or causes the immune system to act against the body.

Many people's headaches have disappeared after they have improved the elimination of their bowel, skin, respiratory and/or urinary systems.

Our food suppliers have laced our foods with poisonous chemicals to improve shelf life and to make it look or taste more appealing. Some people's systems are clean and strong enough to adjust to these poisons. The poisons are still doing damage, strong individuals are just capable of withstanding the damage without producing a strong reaction.

Some of the worst offenders among food additives are: Nutra Sweet (aspartame), MSG (monosodium glutamate - MSG may be listed as natural flavorings or natural flavor enhancers), aluminum, nitrates (found in hot dogs and processed meats), hormones that are injected into our beef, poultry and pork. Food preservatives and food colorings.

NONE OF THESE ARE NATURAL AND ARE POISONS, CONSIDERED MILD POISONS, BUT POISONS NEVERTHELESS.

Misalignment or Imbalance

Going to a good chiropractor or cranialmandibular manipulator is the best way of determining a misalignment of either the spine or the tempromandibular joint commonly called TMJ - (pain, cracking or clicking in jaw joint caused by misalignment of teeth or bite).

Misalignment of the Vertebra in the neck can put pressure on a nerve and cause headaches. A massage therapist or chiropractor can advise you on the best course of action for the problem.

Imbalances can be hormonal stemming from the pituitary, pineal, thyroid, parathyroid, thymus, thymus gonadals (ovaries or testes), adrenals or pancreas.

Many times hormonal imbalances include more than one gland. Many herbalist suggest supporting all the glands while targeting on a gland that seems to be really weak or stressed I suggest using Mastergland as that base.

To help determine which gland may be contributing to a headache look at accompanying symptoms and suggestions: (This should be used only when you have exhausted test by a competent health professional - It is unsafe and unwise to do it on your own.)

Pineal - Insomnia, SAD (seasonal acquired depression). Wood Betony or Alfalfa helps nourish.

Pituitary - Obesity, high blood pressure, buffalo back (fat deposit on the upper back). I would take Alfalfa.

Parathyroid - an imbalance of phosphorus and calcium. The Amino acid L-Arginine.

Thyroid - thinning hair or change in hair texture, unexplained weight gain or loss, lack of or nervous energy. Craving salty foods. I personally would take Thyroid Activator (KC-X) for my thyroid disease, others have taken Target TS II, Target TSII with hops or Kelp.

Thymus - Reacting to chemicals in an unexpected manner, such as drinking caffeine and then being able to sleep easily. Taking a medicine that is to sedate or make drowsy and you become energetic or nervous. Anyone who concentrates better on Ritalin I would nutritionally support their thymus. Thim-J, Spirulina or Bee Pollen.

Pancreas - Many times if you crave sweets, wake up with a headache, have mood swings, depression, weakness and grouchiness if skipped meals I would suspect hypoglycemia (low blood sugar). Some people have reported great results taking any of the following: GTF Chromium (not chromium picolinate which study shows contributes to diabetes) in addition to one or more of HY-A, HY-C, Potassium, Licorice root (licorice root should be taken only under the guidance from someone who is educated in Herbology) or Pantothenic acid (B-5).

Adrenals - Lack of energy anytime possibly wanting to stay awake late at night and sleeping in late in the mornings. What nourishes the Adrenals also nourish the Pancreas (see previous paragraph).

Gonadals - Mood swings, irritability, menstruation problems, pain in the glands.

For Males: Men's formula, Saw Palmetto, Sarsaparilla and zinc

For Females: FCSII, FC with Dong quai or NF-X.

Also see the connection between gonadal health and the liver.

An imbalance of Acidophilus and Yeast in the body can allow yeast to overpopulate or invade parts of the body such as the nervous system or the brain which can cause, among other things, headaches. For more information about balancing the yeast in your system read the book THE YEAST CONNECTION by Dr. Crook.

An imbalance in blood pressure can cause headaches. It is a good idea to get your blood pressure tested and if it is high, I suggest you take the medication prescribed by a competent doctor in conjunction with an herbal regimen. Herbs work too slowly and you could have health complications.

There is a study that indicates that at least 85% of all high blood pressure is attributed to a Potassium deficiency.

Mega-chel, stress management and balancing the rest of the body also may help in normalizing blood pressure.

Allergies

If you suspect that your headaches are caused by an allergy, you should keep a journal. Record where you have been and what you have eaten, smelled or inhaled to help to narrow down what is causing the headache.

Allergies themselves are a symptom often caused by toxic levels or deficiencies.

Environmental allergens such as: Chemicals from carpets and furniture, perfumes, dust, mold, dander, freon gas from air conditioners, pain and detergents, radiation, bacteria, viruses, fumigants (bug sprays), cleaning products, or smoke can give some sensitive people headaches. Isolating and avoiding these allergens are important but so is detoxifying the body which may be a more permanent solution.

Food allergies are usually caused by toxin overload already in the body as well as deficiencies.

pH Imbalance

A pH imbalance can rob the body of minerals such as calcium which deficiency can cause headaches. I suggest going on an acid/alkaline balanced diet. I would also take SKL to help provide the minerals the pH imbalance has robbed from the body.

Deficiencies

Deficiencies can be caused by poor digestion, mal absorption or non-ingesting of needed nutrients.

The body can produce and convert many vitamins, nutrients and amino acids some, however, need to be consumed. Deficiencies that do not fall under allergy producing deficiencies yet can cause headaches are: Vitamins B-6, B-3 and E Amino acids L-Tryptophan and L-Ornithine, and Minerals Zinc, Iron, Choline, Potassium, Sodium, Calcium and Lecithin and Cholesterol.

Another deficiency is a lack of oxygen getting to the brain, either because of the other factors or because of build up of the arteries by cholesterol or inorganic minerals or poor circulation because of weakness of the heart.

If I suspected not enough oxygen to the brain (possible symptoms might include: Poor memory, mental fatigue or dizziness.), I would research the following supplements: Mega-chel, Blessed thistle, Gotu Kola/Ginkgo combination and I-X.

Stress

Long term stress can cause muscles to stay in a contracted state. This can restrict blood vessels or cause poor circulation or put pressure on a nerve.

When we are stressed we often alter our breathing which can cause a lack of oxygen to the brain.

Stress also causes the body to produce acid which can aggravate a low sodium and calcium level in the body.

Many of us ignore stress or hold onto stress which can cause headaches as well as affecting the whole body. Exercising vigorously, expressing your emotions and frustrations and medication can help you live with stress.

It is very rare for headaches to be caused by cysts, aneurysm or tumors and we didn't even explore this area. That's a whole article in itself. I suggest if your headaches are chronic that you get those possibilities ruled out.

I have taken a class where the instructor told us that sometimes the location of the headache can give insight on what is causing it.

A - Pain and aches in the upper side of neck and lower jaw may indicate pharyngitis (sore throat), laryngitis, diphtheria (inflammation of the respiratory system) or trigeminal neuralgia (pain caused by the inflammation of the facial muscle).

B - Aches below and lateral of C may indicate nervous disorders, stomach troubles, spinal irritations, impending rheumatism or disease of cervical (neck.

C - Ache at back of neck, near base of brain may indicate nervous disorders, nephritis (kidney inflammation), diseases of spinal cord or middle ear disease.

E - Ache near and below F may indicate head ache caused by constipation.

F. Ache at center back of head may indicate eye trouble- refraction myopia (near sightedness), etc. May also indicate choline deficiency.

G- Ache at back side of head over ears may indicate poor blood or uterine trouble.

H - Ache over entire top of head may indicate female disorders, bladder trouble, hysteria (emotional outbreak), neurasthenia (prolonged stress), Vitamin B-12 deficiency anemia, epilepsy, or ovarian trouble.

J - Ache in center of forehead just above L may indicate trouble with nose, eyes, or intestine.

K - Ache over and around each eye may indicate dyspepsia (poor digestion), stomach trouble or ocular (eye/eyesight) disturbance.

L - Ache above bridge, between eyebrows may indicate constipation, stomach trouble, faulty refraction (vision error) or decayed teeth.

M - Ache around eye and bridge of nose may indicate stomach, eye or nose trouble.

N - Ache of band like character around forehead may indicate anemia

O - Ache in upper center of forehead may indicate catarrh (inflammation of mucous membrane) of nose or throat.

P - Ache behind left ear may indicate efficiency of: natural sodium, l-glutamine or niacimide.

Q - Ache behind right ear may indicate a deficiency of natural potassium.

R - Ache in right temple may indicate an iron deficiency.

S - Ache in left temple may indicate a calcium deficiency.

T - Ache deep behind left eye may indicate a zinc deficiency.

U - Ache above both eyes or middle of forehead at the natural hair line may indicate a weak pituitary gland or l-ornithine, Vitamin E or B-6 deficiency.

W- Ache straight down top of the head may indicate a weak pineal gland.

I'm sure we haven't covered every possible scenario, but hopefully it's a start.

As you can see, finding the cause of a headache is hard to pin down. Some headaches may have several sources.

My personal experiences in trying to help people with headaches have been that about 1/4 of them get no relief from their headaches, about 1/4of them we could figure out the cause and had good results and about 1/2 of them got rid of their chronic headaches when working on other health conditions and we have no idea the headaches went away.

Many people give up and figure they'll just live with it or pop a few pills, but the body does not induce pain without a good reason. That headache may be the body's way of protecting or warning you.

The focus of this site is to "educate, validate, and suggest alternative methods for the treatment of health conditions," which are not readily available to those who go through mainstream programs.

To help ensure good results, high quality foods and supplements are vital. Knowing that the cost of supplements can get overwhelming, we provide a wholesale store.

This is a courtesy, not a requirement for you to ask your questions. We are here to help people, not just gain customers.

If you have any questions please feel free to contact me.

***When working with natural health it is beneficial that you have an understanding of the signs of a healing body. ***

Link: http://www.marysherbs.com/heal/heal-hed.htm

DAMN JUSTICE SYSTEM

2009-05-20T11:50:00.000-07:00

I'm currently in a fucked up mood...i mean realllllly fucked up mood.....so sumthing happened involving my sis n sum dude, yesterday...a crime technically ....and when i found out about .t.it awoken the vicious part of me...the part where i think realllly bad thoughts....which is very rare when it comes to me..cause it takes a lot to piss me off...yh..

to make matters worse this damn justice system here refuse to take any action against it....against anything which happens in this country for that matter which is one of the sole reason why this dump is headed in the wrong direction.. personally, i think that a totally fresh new government system needs to be instilled in this country. Everything is going Topsy turvy, and i for one think they are being regarded ads insignificant factors at the moment..

Yet, give credit where it is due, i applaud the service providers who's are trying their best to do their jobs, when it comes to legal matters, but apparently that seems to be inadequate.
For instance,yesterday a murderer escaped from prison which is located in the south of the island and found himself a all the way up north in a couple of hours. Judging by the fact that this is the second time he has escaped from legal custody, i believe he is being helped. Although this is a relatively small country, i have watched enough documentaries on Nat Geo, to know that inside help for personal gain seems to be the "in Thing" in developed countries, why not here when everyone is looking for a way to get out.

It's those unfortunate events which drive me to continue pursuing a way to fulfill my dreams because i swear left up to me ...those " NO GOOD, UNWORTHY ASSHOLES" would get exactly what they deserve.
If you can't do the time, then don't do the damn crime.

Extremely pissed off and not to mention disappointed.

I just Wanna Live

2009-05-19T07:32:00.000-07:00

first off i wanna post my horoscope...I'm into it..sometime..when i can relate...so here it is."Growth is always a good thing, but you should take a break from pushing yourself right now. Today will not be best spent challenging yourself or starting any difficult conversations. Settle in to a routine right now, and find comfort in doing the same things in familiar patterns. There is something to be said for predictability. Plus, if things never got boring, shaking them up again would not feel nearly as wonderful. Let the dust settle on your newly renovated life.".

Continuing though...i have finally accepted the inevitable n let things be as it may.....n not dwell on the past.. after all .. I'm better than that....one more lesson taught and more information learn... so..today ..I'm gonna think about beaches, n caramel ice cream,n baileys, n music and everything which makes me smile... cuz i deserve to ....and one more thing the world doesn't need is a moping pretty girl..i mean young lady..hehe

on the other hand.. I'm stuck doing recept duty this week..original one is on vacation...n this is hectic hectic hectic.. i had a flipping migraine yesterday....i drank so many pills.ate chocolates, tried all sorts of remedies.....and eventually i got sum relief....i swear i think its because i have been stuck in this vortex of never ending pain..which I am causing myself..yes me ..no one else, because there is no one else here to cause it...

I jus wanna live by Good Charlotte (love them) is currently playing...an I'm gonna use this as inspiration for the day....:)

meanwhile ..toodles..

ah.ohh well

2009-05-17T09:46:00.000-07:00

i think its been a short while since i last posted sumthing..well its sunday afternoon here in st.lucia...n the weather is ok..a lil bit cloudy, but there's sum sun..perfect weather if u wanna go to the beach not get all tanned up...but im jus home, playin games,listenin to music n watchin law n order.....i for one dont really wanna step foot outdoors..which is something i raley do except for goin to work, rehersals,or sum errand...lol....soo.. im prepared for an eventlass day..

on another note..im having pre carnival jitters...i wanna play mas but at the same time i dont want to ...wat should i do ??

A Care

2009-05-12T09:46:00.000-07:00

this morning i woke up refreshed. my migraine finally gave me a sweet break after 2 days.. .thank you ..

On the other hand, i've been worried about a friend, (well i still consider him as a friend..but i dont know weh i stand in his book rite now, rather i think sumone he knows)...siggh .. (p.s i didnt do anything wrong, and thats a fact)..anyways, i havent heard from him for almost a month now, at first i tried not to care,but i did secretly .. but i found out he has been ill lately.. n im honeslty worried. So here comes the predicament.. i wanna call to see how hes doing, show sum concern , but im afraid of his response(being humiliated or w.e)..so to save myself from that i dont think i should..but i really really want to . so wat do i do..???

do i sarifice me feelin a hint of shame,or do i call to show concern??

thought for the rest of the day..:(...:S..i hope he gets better soon though .

Stage number 2 Acceptance

2009-05-10T18:54:00.000-07:00

it's 9.54 pm & im home alone. i had a migraine but i did sum aroma therapy meditating, to ease the pain which was greatly unbearable. im jus about to head to bed cause i hv work in a couple of hours.

I jus want to get one thing off my chest in writing tonight. I miss him, and im feeling down.. really...sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

THE END...

bad day

2009-05-08T08:02:00.000-07:00

woke up on the wrong side o fthe bed, so now im battling sum naussua, n stomach ach...at work worse thing...so im tryin to fight my wasy thru as much as possible.. n i will win..hehe.. i need me sum ginger tea although it not my fav ....blaa.....cuz i wan go out tonight,weekend cuz i deserve to...lol..
so we will see how that plays out..will keep an update..

mimi

1976: Fear of a great plague

2009-05-06T10:35:00.000-07:00

By PAUL MICKLE / The Trentonian
On the cold afternoon of February 5, 1976, an Army recruit told his drill instructor at Fort Dix that he felt tired and weak but not sick enough to see military medics or skip a big training hike.Within 24 hours, 19-year-old Pvt. David Lewis of Ashley Falls, Mass., was dead, killed by an influenza not seen since the plague of 1918-19, which took 500,000 American lives and 20 million worldwide. Two weeks after the recruit's death, health officials disclosed to America that something called "swine flu" had killed Lewis and hospitalized four of his fellow soldiers at the Army base in Burlington County.The ominous name of the flu alone was enough to touch off civilian fear of an epidemic. And government doctors knew from tests hastily conducted at Dix after Lewis' death that 500 soldiers had caught swine flu without falling ill.Any flu able to reach that many people so fast was capable of becoming another worldwide plague, the doctors warned, raising these questions:Does America mobilize for mass inoculations in time to have everybody ready for the next flu season? Or should the country wait to see if the new virus would, as they often do, get stronger to hit harder in the second year?Thus was born what would become known to some medical historians as a fiasco and to others as perhaps the finest hour of America's public health bureaucracy.Only young Lewis died from the swine flu itself in 1976. But as the critics are quick to point out, hundreds of Americans were killed or seriously injured by the inoculation the government gave them to stave off the virus.According to his sister-in-law, John Kent of President Avenue in Lawrence went to his grave in 1997 believing the shot from the government had killed his first wife, Mary, long before her time.Among other critics are Arthur M. Silverstein, whose book, "Pure Politics and Impure Science," suggests President Gerald Ford's desire to win the office on his own, as well as the influence of America's big drug manufacturers, figured into the decision to immunize all 220 million Americans.Still, even the partisan who first branded Ford's program a fiasco, says now that it happened because America's public health establishment identified what easily could have been a new plague and mobilized to beat it amazingly well.To understand the fear of the time you have to know something about the plague American soldiers seemed to bring home with them after fighting in Europe during World War I.The Great Plague, as it came to be called, rivaled the horrid Black Death of medieval times in its ability to strike suddenly and take lives swiftly. In addition to the half million in America, it killed 20 million people around the world.It got its name because it was a brand of flu usually found in domestic pigs and wild swine. It was long thought to have come, like so many flus, out of the Chinese farm country, where people and domestic pigs live closely together.Recent research has shown, however, that the post-WWI flu was brought to Europe by American troops who had been based in the South before they went to war. Medical detectives, still working on the case in the 1990s, determined that a small group of our soldiers took swine flu to Europe and that it spread to the world from there.How the swine flu got to Fort Dix in 1976 still hasn't been tracked down. At the time, Dix military doctors knew only that a killer flu had made it to the base and that they were lucky more men hadn't died or been sickened seriously.Weeks after Lewis died, doctors from the Centers for Disease Control and other federal public health officials were meeting in Washington, trying to decide if they should recommend the government start a costly program of mass inoculations. One doc later told the authors of "The Epidemic that Never Was" that he and others in on the meetings realized there was "nothing in this for the CDC except trouble," especially because a decision had to be made fast to get the immunizations manufactured by the fall."...The obvious thing to do was immunize everybody," the doctor said. "But if we tried to do that ... we might have to interrupt a hell of a lot of work on other diseases."The doctors knew they faced complaints if the epidemic broke out and vaccines weren't ready, as well as criticism if they spent millions inoculating people for a plague that didn't happen."As for 'another 1918,' 1 didn't expect that," the doctor continued in the book. "But who could be sure? It would wreck us. Yet, if there weren't a pandemic, we'd be charged with wasting public money, crying wolf and causing all the inconvenience for nothing ... It was a no-win situation."By mid-March, CDC Director Dr. David J. Sencer had lined up most of the medical establishment behind his plan to call on Ford to support a $135 million program of mass inoculation.On March 24, one day after a surprise loss to Ronald Reagan in the North Carolina Republican presidential primary, Ford decided to make the announcement to the American public.Congress still had to appropriate the money, of course, and that wasn't going to be easy. Even before official congressional consideration of the plan was taken up, there were forces arguing against it.Another big hurdle was the drug makers, who were insisting the government take liability for any harmful side effects from the vaccine. During congressional hearings in the spring and early summer, lawmakers heard some naysayers who noted that the swine flu of last winter never got beyond Dix and that only one death had been reported.The president and his experts prevailed, however, and on Aug. 12 Congress put up the money to get the job done. The mighty task was put into the hands of a charismatic 33-year-old physician for the Department of Health, Education and Welfare, Dr. W. Delano Meriwether, a world-class sprinter who still competed in track meets.Now he was in a race for life, or so he thought. Meriwether was given until the end of the year to get all 220 million Americans inoculated against swine flu.By Oct. 1, the makers had the serums ready and America's public health bureaucracy had lined up thousands of doctors, nurses and paramedics to give out the shots at medical centers, schools and firehouses across the nation.Jim Florio, then an ambitious rookie Democratic congressman supporting Jimmy Carter for president, didn't use the situation to take a shot at Ford. He lined up and was the first Jersey resident to take the inoculation.Within days, however, several people who had taken the shot fell seriously ill. On Oct. 12, three elderly people in the Pittsburgh area suffered heart attacks and died within hours of getting the shot, which led to suspension of the program in Pennsylvania.Jersey pressed on with inoculations, however. Through the fall, even as more bad reports about the side effects of the vaccine came out, thousands of mostly older people in Greater Trenton lined up outside health centers, schools and firehouses to get the shot, sometimes waiting for an hour.One of them was Lawrence's Mary Kent, a 45-year-old mother of two teenage boys who couldn't tie the ribbons on Christmas presents only days after she got her shot at the Trenton War Memorial in early December.On Dec. 16, increasingly concerned about reports of the vaccine touching off neurological problems, especially rare Guillain-Barre syndrome, the government suspended the program, having inoculated 40 million people for a flu that never came.By year's end, Jack Kent knew his wife was seriously ill and started reading all about the side effects of the president's flu inoculation, especially nerve problems like those his wife was experiencing.Even before Mary Kent died an invalid at age 51 in January 1982, Kent had joined the hundreds of Americans who filed suit against the government on behalf of children left without a parent due to fatal side effects from the swine flu vaccine.Kent's sister-in-law, also named Mary Kent, recalled the other day that Jack Kent died in 1997 still angrily blaming the government for giving his wife Guillian-Barre, leading to her death.The swine flu case of 1976 forever reduced confidence in public health pronouncements from the government and helped foster cynicism about federal policy makers that continues to this day.Citing the swine flu fiasco, for instance, one scholar recently authored a report suggesting the threat of AIDS has been similarly overblown.Yet Joseph Califano, one of the earliest to use the word "fiasco" in describing the swine flu affair, came to the conclusion that it all couldn't have been avoided. Califano, whom President Carter appointed Secretary of Health, Education and Welfare after beating Ford in the November election, said the doctors had no choice but to err on the side of the caution.In "The Epidemic That Never Was," Califano said that faced with the threat of another killer plague with the potential to end millions of lives, the doctors were right to seek an inoculation program.

sigh..april showers

2009-05-05T07:46:00.000-07:00

A friend sent me this in an email this , i jus had to put it up ..soo true..

On a more serious note though, it's been raining cats n dogs here all mornin, i got preppped for work by 7.30 , 9 30 arrived n i was till home watchin cartoons. i swear the rain has not taken a break since god knows when .. thank the lord for nice coworkers.. dang... i swear i wud not have left m y house under no circumstance if it wasnt for rochelle .. thanks rochelle.. lol ..

jazz weekend

2009-05-03T11:47:00.000-07:00

so im home watchin total drama island on boomerang...lol.. i so love that show...lol...
ultimately im bored ... a lil .. the launchin of jazz was yesterday...n im supposed to be at jazz on the beach wit my moddlin group today ..but im not really feelin it....the weather is not beach callin .. hehe.. .i mean who goes to the beach when it keeps rainin n stoppin n so on ... ewwww...so im jus spendin ma tiem in my cozy lil home.. with tv,n junkfood...sigghh ..

oh yh tomoro i hv this focus group discussion to attend.....sooo not lookin forward to it...needless. im getin paid for it. n rite now money is needed. ...
meanwhile... im gonna go back to the tv.. toodles

shate

2009-04-30T08:12:00.001-07:00

chupse... im tryin to change my blog colours.. chupse.. wam to that shate..... whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

CARNIVAL 2kmine to whine n grind

2009-04-30T06:44:00.000-07:00

yh .. so im soo bored in the office rite now.. i wish i could go sit in a salon cuz my hair need sum major therapy....MAJOR!!!...X 2..so i hv to do it today .. one way or the other.. sighh... soo yh the carnival season has launched..,hmmmm....n im psyched.. yay....partyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...............................sunburns,rum,siggghh ... i think i earned the rite to ... soo ... yh im waitin to see the bands costumes... uggh only one band has launched so far.. n their costumes are sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeettttttttt...major... but i mean i hv to shop around n they are number 2 in my eyes soo.. yh .. i mean ... yh but three bands are launching tonight this evening.. we. .. so lets see wat they hv in stock i hope to be impressed.

meanwhile...i hurt my nail..accidentally .. n i cursed out.. lol ... really loud .. awkward moment wen ure in a crowd....sigh ... so .

yh i was jus postin sum for postin sake.. soo here we go...

oh yh ... i dont mean to sound mean but the swine flu epidemic is gettin worse day by day .. more like nite... n jazz is this weekend which means foreigners will be flooding slu...and that has many lucians scared.... i am a lil too i admit... cuz ..yh u know why .. soo ... jus keepin the positivity n hopes this virus gets it ass shut dwn pretty soon ..god help us all ...

toodles.

Born to lead

2009-04-24T06:12:00.000-07:00

love this song..(band) Hoobastank

"Born To Lead"With eyes closed tightly, I march so blindly. Pretending everything's fine, 'Cause you're there to keep me in line. I don't want your guidance, I'll break my silence. So sick of asking and being denied and now I realise.

We're holding the key, to unlock our destiny, We were Born To Lead. We're finally free, no longer following, We were Born To Lead... we were Born To Lead.

You can't ignore me (you can't ingnore me) You cant think for me (you can't think for me) Your world will come crashing down to the ground, 'Cause I figured you out. We're holding the key, to unlock our destiny, We were Born To Lead. We're finally free, no longer following, We were Born To Lead... we were Born To Lead.

I use to think I'm ALL alone, But now I see our numbers grow. I'm not afraid to break away, Think on my own With eyes wide open, My new life begins. Without you there to tell me, when, where and how, And you can't stop me now!

We're holding the key, to unlock our destiny, We were Born To Lead.

We're finally free, no longer following, We were Born To Lead... we were Born To Lead.

We're holding the key, to unlock our destiny, We were Born To Lead We're finally free, no longer following, We were Born To Lead.

My aura

2009-04-23T10:27:00.000-07:00

Greens are balanced, harmonious, and peaceful personalities. They need harmony in their life and prefer to live in a natural environment. They are the most balanced people in the color spectrum. They also have a powerful connection with nature. Living in the country, next to a forest or park or close to a lake or ocean is important for these friendly and heartfelt personalities. Greens are open, extroverted, expressive, friendly, communicative and heartfelt. Greens perceive life through their heart. Their primary motivations are contentment and harmony. They judge their successes by how close they are to their friends or nature. Greens are content personalities. If they are in power and have found their place they need very little to be happy or feel needed. Their inner happiness and satisfaction is important to them and is fulfilled without much expectation.

hmmph

2009-04-20T06:14:00.000-07:00

I THINK SOMEONE IS AN ASSSSS!!!

From the House of ADAM

2009-04-17T08:26:00.000-07:00

Interesting dialogue i came a cross ina book i was reading last nite.. whats the moral??How Many more False costumes wil llust have to wear before everyone else figures out what we have?Our sex drives promises everything and delivers nothing it offers only the briefest of pleasures and gives the most lasting of pain And Human Beings are so weak that they endow this meaningless physical act with all the emotional qualities of fullfillment and purpose that can be found in every other aspect of daily life.

Truth

2009-04-16T10:55:00.000-07:00

Gee Wow...I'm currently appalled by the reaction n excuses of sum ppl .... never mind... now i know my place...n my significance in their book...moving on ... On another note my brother took the liberty of not calling family about his well being in the army rite now...n now he gives me this lol..lol..lol attitude on msn.. i swear i will kick his ass when i get the chance...chupse

soooo I'm battling the flu this week...also is about 3 in 5 persons across the island. goood god.. i woke up teary eyed yesterday morning cuz i could barely breath, n i hate getting sick....it just throws the natural order of things off balance. im high on meds,I'm full on meds, i don't think i can eat anything at the moment... its nauseating...

i really hope this goes away sooon ... like reallllly soon .. as in tonight.. lol..lol

we shall await and see..

ohhh so i was reading this someones online journal yh .. n they made this entry about a certain fruit of the spirit which they are totally contradicting at the moment.. yh its hard.. but i don't think they are even making an effort to abide to it...At ALL!!!...which WILL make a situation end up in a dirty place.. not as they wanted, or anyone wants ,but trust me... it always happens in situations like these in two ways...eating you alive or surfacing of the "Fear"..(p.s not really the fear i just didn't want to say the word in the case of .......lol...wee).. moving on

so I'm just here waiting for 4.30 to arrive so i can go home... like i wanna sleep .. hello..

tata....mimi

Easter Weekend

2009-04-14T09:49:00.000-07:00

I'm currently singing along to kindly unspoken (Kate Voegele) ... one of my revived fav tracks...n i hv sum truthful stuff going through my head rite now but that case is closed...so it was a very long easter weekend which i was lookin forward to by the way .in my schedule was only the word SLEEP ... maybe a million times ... n i did fulfil that task .. yay.. n yh i drank sooo much tea... wow... i love tea now..i can drink the shit forever...needless sum unplanned events took place... which was joyful.Although i spent every moment of my 4 days free indoors it was great....

on another note... i have a plan to design .. you know that highly anticipated one .putting it in motion come may ..im jus waitin for ma gear. better hurry up... yh

OH yh .... so our big show is approaching, and fast might i add.. i sadly i don't think we are lacking in choreography,discipline,etc... and all the energy that should be used to almost perfect that moment is being channeled towards a less imperative place rite now.... which is rather disappointing..

OH yh ... unfortunately i developed a sore throat over the weekend...sigh ... n it is killing me.... hope is goes away ASAP.....

enjoy the rest of the week ..

toddles

deep shit ...hmmmm

2009-04-07T07:30:00.000-07:00

Ive been thinking, with the increasing crime wave,economic crisis,natural disaters and so on , what would be the purpose of returning to uni at this point. Yea i shud be having a little bit ..well alot more positive thoughts towards that goal .. and i do ... but i jus cant help wonder..
actually it took the disaster which took place in italy yesterday to bring the that thought to mind..(RIP all who died)..dont know how long this feeling will last.
dont get me wrong, i am all for the wild uni life,stressful insomniatic days n nights,fun in the cities,etc ...but im i really prepared for it... hmmmmm

that will be my task for this month . to figure out who i am , what i want n make some final decisions.

toodles

oooo..ooo

2009-04-06T10:33:00.000-07:00

sooooooooooooooooooo..its official...i have become lazy .....lack of office work is shutting down my body.....sighhhhhhhhh

UNI

2009-04-03T09:03:00.000-07:00

its official, i have relaunched the journey to start my uni again ... (yh it was on hold.. i was goin thru a miserable phase)...sooo ... i decided if im gonna pay so much money..(yh i hv to make a sacrifice.. for an investment...my life).. im gonna get what its worth..so im currently doin some research, on some UK unis... and i much say i am quite impressed....
also .. i hv to be doin alot of extra work to get half way thru my task ... u know.. soo .. will kepe u posted.

mimi

april fools

2009-04-01T06:22:00.001-07:00

lol..lol..lol.. today i was fooled.. maybe after years... lol..lol..
BOOM !!! NEYO ADDED TO SLU JAZZ 09 !!! http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=61909&id=517706932&saved#/photo.php?pid=2062838&id=517706932

drama and me is a nono

2009-03-31T10:07:00.000-07:00

currently i am baffled by the behaviour of sum persons who as role models for sum yoiunger persons in my modelling group or shud i say ex modelling group.over the past few days i hv seem n read and heard things i never imagined would happened.. which made me come to the realisation that this is NOT the place for me.. and under No circumsatnce am i goin to tolerate such immature behaviour, or shame brought upon my name because i represent a group. I for one don not know what exactly went on , but accorsing to the messages which were being thrown all over the net from the persons involved the solution is uncalled for, disrepectful to other members and themselves and intolerable. hence i have requested the termination of my contract which i signed two weeks ago, which ritefully grants me a month(two weeks left) to do so if i choose to..which is the case. drama n me is a no no .. and at at the rate this is going trust me there will be drama... major and i want absolutley no part of it..

so i will take advice form the stars and walk in line with my horoscope.. which i honestly think is a wake up call for me today .... and will definetely do me justice in more than one context .. lol

"The beginning of the year isn't the only time that you get to make resolutions about your life. If you want change, there is no time like the present! It's a good day for making a fresh start, for turning over a new leaf, and for putting bad habits behind you. You shouldn't wait any longer -- especially if you feel the urge to change now. You have clarity, which isn't always going to be the case. So cut out the bad and start focusing more on the new. "

xoxo.. mimi

BROKEN I AM ... help ME!!!

2009-03-30T05:37:00.000-07:00

yhhhhhhhhhhhhh rite.... my horoscope today was "You'll be able to be everyone's hero today by solving all sorts of problems. All you need to do is use your own special brand of creativity to get the job done. From something as minor as a broken zipper to something as major as a missed deadline, you can easily master every little unpleasant surprise that comes your way. And the fact that you are feeling so calm and confident will go a long way toward helping people trust in you and give you the power you need. "...somebody shoot me please... because that is soooo way off....i am sooo deep in shit i cant even think straight...

they say its hard to let go of something or someone u love. i dont know but love is not supposed to hurt... never , never ever ever ever... so if im hurtin rite now...(which i am )...what exactly is goin on with me ...

i thought i was ready to move on e awya from this place in limbo,emotional toture i say ...hmmm but i was wrong.. so very very very wrong...n i hv retraced a thousand steps back ... its not that i dont know what to do , not that i dont know the right thing to do its jus that i cant seem to get myself to do it.. why...I DONT KNOW!!!, and now i hv done the unthinkable because i was being honest with myself n some other person .... n i swear i have jus kicked in the ass the one good thing that might have happened to me in ages....AGES!!which now makes me feel even more crapier every time i think about it...

i seriously cannot take this shit anymore...

sighhhhhh...been alot of that lately ..

2009-03-27T06:28:00.000-07:00

and jus when u think u will reach the tip of hte iceberg, sum unexplained supernatural force pushes u allllll the way back to the base and now its back to the drawing borad with me it is.everything happens for a reason, or so they say... but i cant seem to find the reason for this phase/ life lesson. so please tell me world because i ahv e examined, analyzed and interpreted the possible outcomes of the situation and yet i have not acccomplished anything more than jus utter confusion. at times i even pretend to remain nonchalant about it is futile. maybe a minor diciplinary task or challenge will give me some maturity of thought , which is needed.. who knows... im in such a daze momentarily... ohhh goshhhhhhhhh...

toodles.

tears are good

2009-03-25T08:36:00.000-07:00

i cried today.....why..because i needed to...trust me when your body is riddin itself of impurities or w.e dont restrict it from doin it duty...after all its for your own benefit..

so it wasnt the whole tearing gettin ur shirt wet ..lol..kinda thing...i was jus talkin to a *fren*...about stuff n it happened...the funniest thing i sthat it took me a good 2 minutes or so to realize that i was doin it... i swear...n i was like OMG im cryin to the one person i vowed never to ....nonetheless its a good thing it had nun to do with our situation...jus a lil life pep talk..lol.. and it felt good.. i think i needed that...relief is marvelous...

so anyways...my god forsaken migraines seem to be harrasing me nonstop lately...i dunno why or what i did to them .. but they jus cant seem to give me a break...and it is painful....very ...i jus wish they would go away ...FOR GOOD.....that would be the highlight of my life...

&& no im not goin to go do sumthing stupid liek sum doctors tell their patients liek have a child... n they will be gone.. like do they even think about whats goin to happen to the child after wards....if it can be taken care of or w.e ....

sighhh ... i wonder where they went to school sumtimes or if they have any conscience....meanhwhile i missed college hilllast nite so im gonna go get me sum therapy....:P

laters

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2009-03-24T06:54:00.000-07:00

uggggggggggggggghhhh..for some reason i keep pulling myself back to square one.... a bad squre by the way.....seriously what the fuck is wrong with me ... or is this how allllll normal human nature should be.....(i wil continue quabbling without pointing out the topic at hand..figure it out)..lol..lol... yh sooo i believe that i jus seem to enjoy the uhhhhh not so good feelings.. (hehehe)..because i always seem to go back to them.... or maybe its jus a nother calling from a higher source...(the cards,the stars, fate)and the increase in communications with ... lalalala..im sorry i cant help myself,i feel like im caught sumwhere in between right and wrong.... n i forsee i will remain there for a while... (gag mhere please)....goshh ...sighhh ... anyways.... its another boring week at work .. ...with pain... yes.. im havin a bad week ... physical pain, emotional pain, maybe even a lil mental...lol..(not really)... && my girlfren is goin thru this sit rite now.. but im sorry i can't be there for her like she mite want me to ... but i cant always play heroim only a human being n rite now i cant even deal with my own ummm situations farless for sumone elses...(sorry if i may sound selfish) but ...thats the wasy life goes.. sumtimes u jus have to go with the flow n see what adventures it take u on (sumwat)....still sighin here..i need comfort food... n by that i mean cake or chinese....lol..lol...lol..toodles

mimi

Awakening.

2009-03-20T05:51:00.000-07:00

today i got a wake up call from some1..much needed by the way...(horoscope).....i am sooo in a cult.....sighhhhhhhhh..lol..yh so anyways this is what it said..

Your lifestyle could be due for a few more restrictions right now! You've been spending far too much time on unnecessary people and far too much money on unnecessary things. But both time and money could run out sooner than you think. The time has arrived for some strict conservation. Challenge yourself to see how little money you can spend in a day and how quickly you can run through your errands. You will end up surprising yourself and stretching your resources at the same time, which is pretty rewarding

and that i can 100% relate to right now .. so this littel reminder will be my motivation to come out of my current situation...

on another note TGIF!!!!!i am soo bored of this office... my gf bday is this weekend(the big 21) so im gonna try to pile in a smuch fun as possible in my system for the sake of her. cause i know for a fact that i am gonna be rather moody ...

so peeps hv a funfilled weekend....dont overdo the booze.. toodles.

ridiculously naive..

2009-03-19T05:40:00.000-07:00

i have been such a spaz lately..dunno why ...i think i neeed a couple of slaps ... hehehe ..not really ....but yh i need to escape into the mountains(pity theres harldy none here), with sum candles , go meditate and reevaluate my life right now...whats imperative and whats need sto be thrown the f.*&^% away ).

for some reason ... i cant seem to let *THIS* go ... why oh why .....hmmmm...maybe i shud see a shrink..lol .. (never)..or maybe i shud yell at someone or sumthing...

God Help My Poor Sweet Soul.

....mind boggling ...

2009-03-18T10:46:00.000-07:00

omg... im soooooooooooooooooo confused....or maybe selfish...or maybe jus playina theresa character for passions right now(minus the all out tryin so hard acts)....or naive...yh so anyways....

what to do? what to do?....ohhhhhhh gosh man ... this is so hard....

nah i cant say this on here..sorry ...changed my mind... lol

but on another note... hehe.. my roomy n i have decided to move out n find sumwhere else to live.. becuase of superstition ... or fact (who knows.).. but seriously i did not leave my peacful quiet neighbourhod for this....

i shall return ... i went blank ..

hehe

feeling alive all over again ..

2009-03-16T11:56:00.000-07:00

As promised i had myself sum much needed outdoorsy time......i think i even got a lil sunburnt....chupse...

but anyways....i bounced up with this friend of mine whom i havnt seeen in a very long time... we speak alll the time online, phone etc...but i must say the outdoors did me sum justice...much needed by the way...it was fun..

now about my situation .....i have decided to how u say ..move on with my life.. because stayin in this current position is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo not worth it.....seriously ......and im beginning to feel a lil better...been bumming for a while..

ohh yh .. so i got this gig again ...lol (yh i dropped it for a while...hehe)....so the night life will be seein me a lil bit often than usual...till i get bored of it that is..then i will crawl back into my shell..(i think) ....i hope it pays off..

meanwhile i am sumwhat bored.. not the usual 98% ..lol ... im jus here killin time with hoobastank, the fray,n switchfoot....theyre really great ....audio therapy...till i go home...

toodles..

gettin a lil mindless..

2009-03-12T05:31:00.000-07:00

yh..soo ive had a lot on my mind lately...well not really a lot...hehe...(a few things)...but they are soo strenious on my thoughts so that makes them alot..anyways......this jerk cant seem to get out of my head.. n to make matter worse...i see him like alllll the time....like wtf....(are we stalkin each other??).......anywho...i can see that i hv my work cut out for me....

on another note...yesterday's rehersals was a disaster...(well the latter part of it).....we had to come up with this routine in groups n then perform..hmm let me tell u ..i saw the flop commin ..for one....it was sooooooooooooo disorganised..due to the fact that some ppl (no names ) .....have a tendency to wanna be the leaders or w.e so they kinda shut out ur thoughts...(no what i mean ..)...which ended up wiht everybody doin their own thing....disasterous n funny at the same time....(which by the way i will not join in a group with certain ppl again ...)

apart from that everything was cool...

&&&...hmm wat else been goin on....uhhhh oh yh ..i have had the most & i mean MOST ...BORING week in history ......MY GOSH ...(work related that is)....n i thought it couldnt get any worse....soooo i am spending the weekend outdoors to get some of my creative juices flowing....cuz i think i have officially become a couch potato....&&& now im hungry..hehehe

toodles..

..hmmm...uhhh.....disgust

2009-03-09T06:23:00.000-07:00

Again with the Accuracy of the horoscope...":Today, your judgment might not be totally accurate. This is a rare situation for you, and it's clearly going to be temporary. But for now, you need to take it seriously and not make any major moves or commitments. Cover the details of any arrangements now and double check them -- but wait for another day to sign on that dotted line. There is just too much noise in your mind right now. You're distracted emotionally, and it's causing you to not see reality accurately. "

so the most disturbing thing happend yesterday ...i wont say what ...but it left me thinkin alot... (well not really alot but it kept me tinkin still...mind you )..someone i thought had this great personality ...hmmm n the whole sexy looks on the outside turned out to be quite dirty ....i mean REALLY....how can one live with themselves.. n look at ...... with a straight face...for days...lie...n feel no remorse...i swear some men ... are ridiculous....its amazing that a livin human being has no concience....gosh man ....

so anyways....when i look at that person now.. or think of the image all i see is ugly......very ugly.......

personally i think that they should castrate all men like that ...n the women...wellll they need to open their eyes.....a bit wider...

on another note.....i think its time that this triangle became a uhhhh...hmmm another shape... where im not included.....lol..lol..thin that will be the best for everyone ...

ahhh... n the boredom continues

2009-03-05T10:59:00.000-08:00

ahhh..yesterday we had the first cut in our modelling group...n contracts were given... yay me.. snagged me one of those.. big suprise.. woop... w.e meanwhile.. i think there is something ultimately wrong with my thinking right now... its all clouded, and judegmental ... n has this whole negative vibe around it... soo bad.... hence ive had a week of migraines...it was so funn while it lasted.( not havin them that is)... i need some relaxation .. n no to mention some major fun.. need to get out.... clear my head lalalala...

on an other note...its day three of the AC strike.. like wtf.. i decided im not stayin in offcie so i went to hold the recept desk for a good two hours...(p.s if u dont like multi taskin never look for a job in in that field) ..boring at time though...

oh yh so top model premiered last nite... can you say suckkkkkkkkkkkkkk..... what the hell is becomin of these girls of today ... lack pizazz.....

im currently facebooking now.. as usual .. nun to do ..killing time .. im so sick of this ritual ...its makin me lazy, body n mind... i need a change in environment...
anywho... adios.. goin to listen to some music ... (p.s Hinder,switchfoot and crossfade are great bands look them up ) hehe

xoxo...mimi

March has began with a .....??

2009-03-04T05:20:00.000-08:00

Reading Horoscopes has become one of my rituals...beceuase of the mere fact that i recieve a newsletter everyday from this site...i decided one day wat the heck..why not read it.. and it stuck ...Most of the time (i think coincidentally) it's rather 85% accurate, somtimes i like what i hear, sometimes i dont...liek today ..im in a confused placed right now... and this is not 85% but 100% accurate, this is what it said.." Today an intellectual connection could spark some romantic feelings, but the situation will be a complicated one. There's an imbalance of interest or of availability -- and now is not the time to be embroiled in big dramas that could give you a bad reputation -- or a broken heart. So proceed with caution when you start to feel the chemistry brewing with someone right now. There is more to this than meets the eye and you have to protect yourself. Make sure you're doing the right thing. " hmmm ..so what should i do ..on a normal basis i usually take precation ... but my stubborness is beginnning to overpower my mind...because i know what is the right thing.. but being human.. (and a stubborn one at that ) i tend to push things back in my head and try to look for a silver lining in the situaton( and p.s there IS a silver lining comin in this one that i am sure about) ... but should i keep my hopes up on it.. thats where the problem lies...oh well...honestly i'm not in a ny rush for that,cause i have bigger fishes to fry n the oil is beginnin to get a lil too hott...we will see how that plays along

on another note.. ANTM premieres tonight...one of my few fav tv shows... n it's a good thing rehersals are planned to end earlier than usual ... (if it doesnt i will leave)so im anticipating it...hope i dont get dissapointed..

and did i mention that my detox month is goin a lil .. uhh lets jus say we have some deviace here.. lol .. it soooo hard.. but fear not.. i try to eat the healthy stuff only .. n i only had breakfast...so thats not too bad right??

oh yh..its been two days with no AC on my floor and for some unapparent reason the tech guys have not come to fix the problem.. it is stiffling up in here..suffocation ...etc..despite the face that all windows n doors are open.. n oh yh i stole a fan downsatirs... so i think im the most comfy for now... but it still doesnt disregard the fact that the tech guys are lapsing....
anywho.. i htink my daily duty here is done... so till we meet again
adios,chao,ariverderci,aloha..w.e
hehe
xoxo mimi

weakness...

2009-02-25T04:40:00.001-08:00

Like im having one of the worse weeks ever...i feel sooo weak...well i know why..doesnt mean u hv to ..(hmmph).....i jus wanna fold up myself in that ugly brown comforter on my bed..n lock the door till the weekend...siiiiighhhhhh....again sigggghhhh.....oh last nite (well more like early morn)....the most frightening thing happened...yh....since i was not in the mood...i went to bed like 8:30 thereabout...woke up for a bathroom break at 1.00 a.m (p.s i was sleeping upside down ...well on the bed u know what i mean).....so i decided to turn around n sleep in my normal position....hmmmm..as a habit i ALWAYS shake every thing off the bed before i jump in .. pillows and all ... so there was one pillow in its rightful position so i decided to do my nightly (early morn w.e) ritual....and ALAS....guess what jumped out......a centipede...OMG i could only scream ( but that would wake the neighbours..roomy,(n she wud never fall asleep again)..hehe....but i freaked out...(but killed the triffling lil bitch...ewwwwwwwww)...so i removed every pillow case on all pillows..even those i was using..pulled the bed into the center of the room n went to watch NIck at nite,i think Alf was playin...ugggh....continued browsing...think i stayed a while watching HGTV...till my eyes couldn't take the burn anymore (p.s ppl in this neighbourhood dont sleep ..or maybe they were late night booty calls..hehe...vehicles kept startin n leavin n passin n w.e)so yh ...back to point...went back to bed...god..that was horrible...think i took another hour befor ei finally fell alseep...yh.

woke up ...body in pain...cramping....my back aches (p.s i am not havin children i heard its kinda like that but worse..much worse...much much worse)...& i havent eaten a proper meal in a week...( this alwasy happens..unintentionally of course)...the famous broke phase is here...and i cant wait for it to be ovre n done with....goshh man ...n i am not goin to reheasals today.....im going home, take a hot bath,n in bed...till whoever decides to call or visit or w.e....which btw is one ting im tryin to refrain from doin .(another story).....meanwhile... im goin to go find work to do .. yh i hv work....but ive been a lil lazy lately..

&& with a very lazy,emotionless xoxo....toodles

30th independence weekend--can u say boredom

2009-02-24T10:11:00.000-08:00

i had the longest most borin weekend ever..... well 3/4 of it was anyways......i didnt even go to the beach...no company...( i mean .. come one who goes to he beach alone...suckers??)....n i didnt go to the base for car race or w.e ...no ride.. n no company .. n not really my thing but i like tryin new stuff..i end up liking them sumtimes...most of the time...obut on the upside i finaly finished reading that book i started like a month and a half ago...lol...hehe....oh yh..and our fundras=iser turned out in between good n great (can i say better)...w.e.. ... so i was tryin to write a poem last nite... been a while... n i could only get like 2 lines out....i need sum inspiration... major... ....&&& uhhh yh i jus wanan do sumthing dif....kk.....geez.....oh yh...nevermind...lol

I hate pain ...

2009-02-19T05:13:00.000-08:00

can someone pleaseeeeeeeeee tell me why im doin this....i mean serioulsy.this mornin i work up n my foot hurt form the inside out.. more than they did last nite... all blistered up n swollen..i could barely walk on the floor... last nites rehearsals killed me.. i swear i did 1000 complete turns....n mr A seemed to forget that the girls were wearing heels......wtf.....if i got a 5 minute breather between each turn then that was alot.. ( not that i did) .... worse part is .. mr M was unable to come give me a much need foot massage.. im hoping for miracles tonite... ..even worse part.. i hv to be wearing heels all day today ... i mean i cant cramp up my sexy with a cute pink top n tight mini skirt( at work)...lol .. weee.. n be wearing slippers...like a big NONO!!...they say beauty is pain ... but...hmmmm this is toture....!! major.. i need beef patties....siggghhh

Facebook furor

2009-02-17T11:22:00.000-08:00

I came across this article on CNN today ... quote interesting i must say

On an otherwise placid holiday weekend, one blog's commentary on a change to Facebook's terms of service created a firestorm of banter on the Web: does the social network claim ownership to any user content on the site, even if the user deletes it?

Facebook is addressing users' concerns about its ownership of images and other content.

Facebook reorganized its terms of service last Wednesday. In a blog post, company legal representative Suzie White provided an explanation.
"We used to have several different documents that outlined what people could and could not do on Facebook, but now we're consolidating all this information to one central place," White wrote.
"We've also simplified and clarified a lot of information that applies to you, including some things you shouldn't do when using the site."
The blog post sounded benign. But the brouhaha arose on Sunday over a revision in the wording of Facebook's policy over what happens to profile content--shared items, blog post-like "notes," photos--when members delete their accounts.
Consumer advocacy blog The Consumerist phrased Facebook's fresh policy as "We Can Do Anything We Want With Your Content. Forever," pointing out that Facebook's ToS spruce-up removed several sentences in which the company said its licenses on user content expired upon account deletion.
And that's where the hysteria began.
"Facebook should now be called The Information Blackhole," one Consumerist commenter proclaimed. "What goes in never comes out. Be careful what you huck in there."
Truth be told, most Facebook users won't give a hoot, the same way that the flurry over the Beacon advertising program in late 2007 was fueled by a few vocal privacy advocates while the general population didn't seem to care about it one way or the other.
But for advocates of copyright reform and privacy, not to mention photographers and writers who may want the photos they upload or "notes" they write on Facebook to eventually lead to some kind of profit, the news was alarming.
Some prominent Twitterers and bloggers, like New Yorker music critic Sasha Frere-Jones, announced that they were deleting their Facebook accounts or pulling all uploaded content.
So Facebook issued somewhat of a clarification on Monday to explain what the change really meant.
"We are not claiming and have never claimed ownership of material that users upload," a statement from Facebook spokesman Barry Schnitt read. And indeed, Facebook's terms of service do say that "User Content and Applications/Connect Sites" are exempt from its claims on content ownership.
"The new Terms were clarified to be more consistent with the behavior of the site," Schnitt's statement continued. "That is, if you send a message to another user (or post to their wall, etc...), that content might not be removed by Facebook if you delete your account (but can be deleted by your friend)."
The statement also noted a few fine points. First, Facebook's license only permits it to use user content "in connection with the Facebook Service or the promotion thereof," indicating that CEO Mark Zuckerberg does not plan to make the site profitable by selling scandalous user photos to the National Enquirer when those Facebook members run for elected office.
And second, if that Facebook content was not public, the site will respect the member's chosen privacy settings. In other words, if your profile and the photos you have uploaded to it are only accessible to people on your friends list, Facebook says it does not have the right to show those photos to anyone outside your friends list.
Facebook has expressed disapproval when photographs and profile screenshots normally protected by the site's login wall or privacy settings have been made public on the Web.
The site reportedly threatened gossip blog mogul Nick Denton with an account deletion when one of his properties, Gawker, posted photographs found on a socialite's Facebook profile. Suffice it to say it would be hypocritical for Facebook to publicly distribute, let alone sell, the same content itself.
Things are a little bit murky for sure, though. Unlike the Yahoo-owned Flickr, Facebook does not have extensive copyright preferences, meaning that a professional photographer might want to choose a media-sharing site where there's less of a gray area as to what can actually happen down the road.
But as Facebook becomes more and more of a content-sharing hub, especially now that the Facebook Connect product expands its reach to third-party sites, it's likely there will be a louder cry among members--especially those involved in creative industries who use their Facebook profiles for professional promotion or publicity--for clearer terms.
The way they stand now, Facebook's terms of service claim that the company does not have ownership over content, yet that it does have "an irrevocable, perpetual, non-exclusive, transferable, fully paid, worldwide license (to)...use, copy, publish, stream, store, retain, publicly perform or display, transmit, scan, reformat, modify, edit, frame, translate, excerpt, adapt, create derivative works, and distribute" material as long as it doesn't violate the privacy preferences set by the user.
Considering Facebook content is login-protected by default, the outcry should be quelled somewhat by that "subject only to your privacy settings" phrasing. Still, this is a debate that might not go away so quickly. iReport.com: Are you steamed over Facebook's policy?
Zuckerberg wrote a post for the Facebook blog later on Monday about the issue: "We still have work to do to communicate more clearly about these issues, and our terms are one example of this," he wrote.
"Our philosophy that people own their information and control who they share it with has remained constant. A lot of the language in our terms is overly formal and protective of the rights we need to provide this service to you. Over time we will continue to clarify our positions and make the terms simpler."
Zuckerberg continued: "We're at an interesting point in the development of the open online world where these issues are being worked out. It's difficult terrain to navigate and we're going to make some missteps, but as the leading service for sharing information we take these issues and our responsibility to help resolve them very seriously."

the triangle

2009-02-17T09:48:00.000-08:00

currently im leanin towards another confused path...its like the rewritin of a chapter of my life..one of the very early ones where you open ur eyes to the world and begin to ummm experiment.i seriously dont want to go into any details really .. (avoid trouble) .. jus so you know it has sumthing to do with the emotional/social part of my life.. which could end up bad.. or otherwise.. im hopin for the other wise... but... thats a lot of work to be done... (well jus be myself really)...i had one of those before..& it started out rocky. to great to .. oh w.e ure old school (sumwat).....if you are witty enuff,and can interprete what im tryin to say then you know what im talkin about.. .if not then .. oh well...i feel like im doin something wrong but with that right feelin ... im sorry .. (really i am .. cuz apparently i always tend to uhhhh attract unavailable compatible metals )...lol.lol.....my horoscope today(yes i have a thing for it..only when it actually makes sense) said that i should try not to control what happens in my life. n jus let things happen .. hmmm .. good one.. i like havin TOTAL (well 95%) control over wat i do .. i like to think of the consequences before i do , think or even speak of something and yes i have evaluated the possible outcomes of this current situation ... and its actually a balanced one.so im goin to side with my horoscope this time.I had absolutely no intentions or thought of gettin tangled in this web..and initially i did not put myself out there..hehe.. i like being in my own little corner ..but nontheless i did.. and its been a smooth ride here on out.. but i know the potholes are comin . oh yes thay are coming.....the question in I'm I ready for that ride??im still pondering on that one..

on another note i have decided (after careful consideration and persuasion lol..lol ..) that im goin to go through an detox month .. i.e next month..so im gettin ready for the tasteless month of no sugar,salt,junk food.. oh i love those.. (im gonna cry).. & substitute them with cardboard tastin rice cakes, n water...(sigh....) the things we do for health... hope it holds a promising reward...

xoxo...a very confused mimi

Valentines day??

2009-02-12T08:19:00.000-08:00

To-morrow is Saint Valentine's day,All in the morning betime,And I a maid at your window,To be your Valentine.Then up he rose, and donn'd his clothes,And dupp'd the chamber-door;Let in the maid, that out a maidNever departed more.

(William Shakespeare, Hamlet, Act IV, Scene 5)

When we think of Valentine's Day, we often think of red roses, candy in heart- shaped boxes, mushy valentines, and winged cherubs flying about shooting starry-eyed lovers with arrows.
But did you know that the origin of Valentine's Day, or Saint Valentine's Day, comes from the life and death of a Christian martyr? According to author Martha Zimmerman, the date traditionally celebrated as St. Valentine's Day finds it origin in the Roman festival of romance called Lupercalia, when the gods Juno and Pan were honored. It was a fertility festival or a lover's holiday looking forward to the return of Spring. In the fifth century, in an attempt to abolish the pagan festival, Pope Gelasius changed Lupercalia and its February 15 date to February 14 and called it Saint Valentine's Day. Even though the names and the date were changed, the emphasis continued to be on love.
Who was the real Valentine, and why did he have a day named after him?
Some authorities credit Geoffrey Chaucer with originating the custom of linking Valentine's Day with lovers. No link between the day and lovers exists before the time of Chaucer, thus leading some to conclude that it was this famous English author who connected the day with lovers. The fullest and earliest description of the tradition occurs in Chaucer's "Parliament of Fouls" composed around 1380. Since that time it has been traditional to connect St. Valentine's Day with love.
But who was the real Saint Valentine? St. Valentine was a Roman Christian who, according to tradition, was martyred during the persecution of Christians in the third century by Emperor Claudius II. The only thing certain about the day we remember as St. Valentine's Day is that it commemorates a martyrdom. Claudius II declared all Christians illegal citizens. By his definition, they were guilty of treason because Roman citizens were required by law to worship the Emperor by declaring publicly, "Caesar is Lord!" Of course, this no Christian could do.
The real Valentine was a Roman Christian martyred during the third century A.D. by the Emperor Claudius II. Prior to his death, Valentine continued to minister in prison by witnessing to his prison guards. One of the guards was a good man who had adopted a blind girl. He asked Valentine if his God could help his daughter. Valentine prayed and the girl was given her sight. The guard and his whole family, 46 people, believed in Jesus and were baptized. When the Emperor heard about this he was furious that Valentine was still making converts even in prison, so he sentenced Valentine to death.
Just before being led out to his execution, the young Christian wrote a note to the jailer's daughter, signing it, "From your Valentine." The first valentine was really a Christian witness. Growing out of this story we participate in a custom of sending cards to people we love.
Given that the tradition of sending love notes grows out of a letter written by St. Valentine to his jailer's daughter on the eve of Valentine's execution, it's ironic that the card we send has received the emphasis, instead of remembering the content of the original Valentine's card: a message of unconditional devotion to Christ, even upon pain of death.
Over time the word "Saint" has been dropped from St. Valentine's Day, further obscuring the origins of this holiday. Instead of a negative reaction to some of the pagan origins of the day, why not celebrate the true love that compelled young Valentine to give up his life?
Remember that the day we know as St. Valentine's Day actually commemorates the death of an early Christian martyr, Valentine, who was put to death for refusing to renounce his faith in Christ.
Instead of chubby cherubs, sappy cards, too much candy, and soon-wilted flowers, why not point your family toward the true significance of St. Valentine's Day this year?
By all means, celebrate the day, but re-inject it with Christian meaning by resolving to live for Jesus without fear or shame, following the godly example of Valentine's unconditional love for Christ.
How can you celebrate St. Valentine's Day in a way that honors the original Valentine, who was martyred for his devotion to God?
First, give your life to Christ.
Second, declare the truth about God's love even if it costs you something.
Third, become a servant to those you love, rather than demanding that your needs be met. According to pastor Alex Stevenson, we all want to hear the phrase, "Be my Valentine." It simply means "you are loved."
This Valentine's Day, remember that you are loved. God loves you and wants you to be His valentine. The love that God gives us is not like the world's love. The world's love is only as sturdy as a paper Valentine's card. But God's love is not a flimsy, cheap imitation: it is the real thing. It is an all-giving love that was and is willing to suffer and die for our deliverance.
Will you be God's valentine? It is your choice. Say yes and give to God the love He desires. And when you do, remember the first Valentine and how he gave everything, including his life, to the God he loved.

When will this end??? Rihanna & Chris

2009-02-12T04:38:00.000-08:00

there are so many different stories to this.. omg.. everytime i gohome form work n turn on the tv, theres esum hollywood 411, or extra or w.e havein a differnt story, one says cuz she gave him herpes,, hehe.. so he wooped her ass.s. another says cuz his ex called or tected him so she started fighting n arguein , annother etc etc... sigghh .. n now the world only lookin at him as the bad person .. i think .... since she was always tryin to control him, n who he hangs out with , followin him everyweh on tours, holdin back his fans cuz of her (caribbean jealousy trait..hehe..we all hava lil bit) ... he got fed up n w.e...n sumthing sent him over the edge..but no one sayin anything..jus the lil stuff.. now jayz wants to woop his asss.. kanye is like being all ... shes like his baby sis w.e...sad part is , he says he is cool with gettin arrested.. so there must be a reason for him being so calm ... rihanna start talkin .. cuz it would be a shame if you end up holding the dirty end of the stick after all that ...

according to bossip.com:

Yesterday Bossip exculsively revealed that the source of the argument stemmed from a phone message to Breezy’s cell that Rihanna noticed. Today, law enforcement sources have confirmed that this is indeed what ignited Rihanna and subsequently initiated the fight:
Law enforcement sources confirm to TMZ Chris Brown received a text message from a woman while he was driving with Rihanna and that’s what started the confrontation that left Rihanna battered and bruised.
We’re told the text message was from a woman who wrote about hooking up with Brown later.
We’ve also learned there is a reference in the police report to an argument over a rapper, but we’ve learned this is NOT what triggered the argument. The woman who text messaged Brown is not a rapper.
As for Rihanna’s injuries, we continue to learn more. Cops took multiple pictures at the scene. Chris Brown allegedly hit Rihanna so hard with his fists, she could barely open her eyes for the photos — they were almost completely swollen shut. She had a fat lip, her mouth was swollen, her nose was badly bloodied, and she had contusions on her forehead and both sides of her face.
The DA is also not satisfied with the evidence and will not move forward with the prosecution until they receive more:
LOS ANGELES, California (CNN) — The Los Angeles District Attorney’s Office asked police to do more investigative work before a decision is made on whether charges will be filed in the domestic violence case against singer Chris Brown, according to a spokeswoman for the DA.
The LAPD’s chief investigator in case, Detective Deshon Andrews, told CNN he hand-carried his findings to the district attorney Tuesday afternoon.
Prosecutors looked at the files and then asked Andrews for “an additional investigation,” DA spokeswoman Jane Robinson said.
Andrews said that to keep photos and documents from leaking to the media, he has kept the case file closely guarded and allowed no copies of the material to be made.

AND

Rihanna’s friends say that they were worried about her back in December:
Brown — who is currently being investigated by Los Angeles county prosecutors after Rihanna allegedly accused him of assaulting her the night before the Grammys — always had a “volatile” relationship with the singer, an insider tells Us. (Us Mag)
A Rihanna confidant adds that bruises were clearly visible on the singer’s neck in early December.
Alarmed, “I asked is everything was OK with her and Chris,” says the pal. “She told me, ‘We broke up again.’ I didn’t pursue the issue further.”
But, Chris’ sister Lytrell Bundy tell Ok Magazine that he is not violent:
While he remains out of public sight, Chris Brown’s family is coming to his defense after his arrest on Sunday for allegedly making criminal threats to his girlfried Rihanna and reportedly hitting her.
“He’s always been a good boy. Never violent,” Chris’ sister Lytrell Bundy tells Extra.
As for how Chris is coping right now with the frenzy of activity surrounding his arrest and subsequent realse on $50K bail, his sister says he’s okay.
“He’s doing good,” she says. “He’s coping… He’s doing as to be expected.”

riri's update....:(...:S

2009-02-11T05:02:00.000-08:00

And it continues... ohh lawdd... Earlier today, the Los Angeles district attorney asked police detectives to dig up more evidence for their case against Chris Brown.
The police are getting cooperation from Rihanna, and what she has told them so far is chilling.
A source close to the investigation tells E! News exclusively that Rihanna has alleged to police that Brown choked her while threatening to kill her and, subsequently, she lost consciousness.
They began squabbling after leaving Clive Davis' pre-Grammy party late Saturday. Shortly after midnight, things blew up. Brown pulled his silver Lamborghini to the side of a street in L.A.'s Hancock Park neighborhood. That's when, per the source, Rihanna grabbed the car keys and tossed them out the window, sending Brown into a rage.
He tried in vain to find the keys, then came back to the car, put his hands around her neck and, according to the insider, said, "I'm going to kill you!"
According to the source, the 20-year-old "Disturbia" singer told police that she lost consciousness, and when she awoke, Brown had fled.
According to the source, her right eye was blackened and badly swollen and she had hand prints on her arms. The responding officers were so concerned about her, they drove Rihanna to the hospital in their squad car instead of waiting for an ambulance.
Officers took two sets of photographs of the banged-up singer, one at the scene and the second after she was admitted to Cedars-Sinai Medical Center for treatment. Those photos were presumably among the evidence presented to the district attorney.
After being treated for her injuries, police escorted her down a rear elevator and into a waiting Mercedes, the source says.
Brown, 19, was subsequently booked on suspicion of making criminal threats. He was released after posting $50,000 bail.
His lawyer, Mark Geragos, has not responded to repeated requests for comment on the allegations. Brown's publicist also has not commented.
A spokeswoman for Rihanna declined to comment specifically on details of the fight and the arrest and stuck to her earlier statement from Sunday: "Rihanna is well. Thank you for concern and support."

So what i want to know is how did she get those claimed bite marks, and bruises on her face, body etc??i doubt he did that while she was unconscious...a lil far fetched...and someone or both of them are holding back, hence they need to get their stories clear and straight to the point in orer to help themselves..i would hate to see wrong decisions made here, because the both have so much potential...

mimi

give me a sign

2009-02-11T04:52:00.000-08:00

ever had one of those it's wrong but it feels right moments...hmmm?? i have..several times and im currently goin through another exciting phase of it right now.... sighhh... whyyyyyyyyyy????? i keep askin myself this everyday ....since it began...but i honesly enjoy it, (the right part) but i shouldnt (the wrong part) ...well like they say (n i believe) everything happens for a reason .. so i am goin to make the best of it....till everything returns to normal .... :)............................................... meanwhile, i plan to do some very construtive related work today ...yesterday i was so bored i practically fell asleep at work, with my head doin the bob dance...its so cool that i hv my own office otherwise i wud be hmm hmm hmm....so yh jus goin to finish up breakfast n get the stepping...toodles...enjoy your day now... mwua..

xoxo.......mimi

riri's not so much of a paradise now huh..

2009-02-10T10:16:00.001-08:00

so early comes the maybe unwanted trouble in paradise..hmmm i guess this finally confirms the fact that they are together after numerous attempts to hide it.. yh..watever..like they know how to do it....and speakin of which they sure done know how to keep private matters under wraps either... so as confirmed lil miss bajan...got her ass wooped....by the breezy man.. hmmm interesting rite... despite the fact that im not really into her...i feel sorry for her up to a point... but i also feel for sorry for him in many ways.

1- he was probably fed up of her insecurity ,which led their argument to the point of arrest/hospitalising as it stands.

2- he was weak enuff of a man to hit a lady,whatever the case was.. it should have never gotten to that point because of themany downsides a: she is now viewed as the victim in the case here, n apparently almost no one is considering the fact that she is not so miss innocent either, n that she had something to do with it.Now also he is being viewed as a horrible not so sweet as we thought sexy dude, wish the cute smile..

i honestly dont know in what direction to point the greatest sympathy rite now...its jus sooooo ... (i don't know)...

p.s im sure u know who im talkin about, as it has been made world headlines..but in the case you dont... hehe..its lil miss riri rihanna and her (i mean not her boyfriend).chris brown...

lalalalala....can't wait to get more info bout this to see what really went down.... but my opinion is she started it... hmmmph...

bullseye

2009-02-10T05:15:00.001-08:00

this mornin i got up late..i think a friend of mine texted (word?? :S) me,checked the time n realised i had well not overslept because i went to bed late...(:))...nontheless...i was like wat the heck,no use rushin , wont make a dif...called the office, receptionist was not yet it... which made me feel better.. .:)...

&& im still tired..............................................................................................................................................

key point i am goin to be in smiles all day ...whistles..

multi coloured strips of paper.. hmmm..

2009-02-09T05:50:00.000-08:00

happy sighhhhhhhhhhhhh...sooo i had the most eventful weekend .. n the fact that it was my bday weekend made it even better... now im tryin to be nonchalant bout the fact that i am soooo effin tired.. n i jus realised i had only 6 hours of sleep for the entire weekend.. ahhhh..oh well i think its worth it, n i honestly think this has been the best age yr ever... which is why im stickin to it... 23 forever ,, yay..i discovered the fountain of youth .... meanwhile it's my boss' sisters bday ... so many bdays in this building this early time of the yr..so yh i jus made this cheesy card from publisher for her..hehe...but i bedazzled it a lil .. sumwat ... so it can have a lil menel touch...n not oh yh its ur bday w.e heres a card to show i knew that...hehe...

on another note im still here procrastinatin as ever... yh i was supposed to have moved office.. said i would have done it on friday ...buuuuutt.big buttt here.. i was lazy... yh ... n its dusty n stuff in there.. n it required me lifting stuff.. n goin through files.. n wat not...w.e... planned to at least move the pc today .. . lol.. rite... highly doubt that will happen ... so.. im gonna watch a movie today... speakin of which i went to the cinema last night.. sumwat on a date.. hehe..n i fell alseep durin the movie.. hmm so i guess i can add a lil more minutes to my rest hours for the weekend...movin on ...im crashin first thing when i arrive home.. &&&..hmmph just remebered i hv to practice my stuff for rehearsals on wednesday ...im thinkin of droppin out of it you know.. it crossed my mind several times...im seein the future...me sittin home. on a wednesday afternoon ..sweeet ...still pondering on that..

p.s amelia.. if u read this.. lemme know if you got the email i sent u on fb ..(info )..hehehehehe..sorry

toodles..

half suckish day

2009-02-06T10:44:00.000-08:00

it's practically the weekend.. n im soo lookin forward to it.. think i will sleep on the beach ..hehe.. not really, so yh we hv this party planned for tomoro...hmmm... (not entirely planned) i somewat anticipated that somthing would go wrong... ditto ... yh so the music it not scheduled...not my fault... so i told my roomy (whos has taken up the coordination responsibilty upon herself)... her idea... to cancel the party ..cuz if there ent music .. then i dnt call it a party ... wat im i supposed to be doin ....playin x & o...hmmph....movin on ... we'll see how that plays out...

on another note.. my fren told me sumthing this mornin which got me pissed off... apparently the modelin thingy i joined has this stuck up .. full of himself.. think he is all that guy who is technically an asss.. (wont give any details so i wont give any impression of who...so easy to figure out)... so yh he said that i was tryin to get with him relationshipwise... talk about twisting a pretzel....farrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr from ,, very far....

number 1- he is tooo young and immature

number 2- he ent all that and a bag of chips

number 3- spoke to the guy once in person, & after he pulled that do i hv any intentions of being with him crap the day i met him ... never communicated with him apart from on the popular facebook vibe.. once in a blue moon...

number 4- im not lookin for relationship dude, n dnt intend to be in one any time soon ...

so i got a lil pissed ... but i let it go.. i jus disliked the fact that he wud try to make me look all desperate and watever.. chupsee.. soooo dont have time for children .. and to make matters worse.. next week i hv to spend a good couple precious minutes of my life infront of this dude...

ohhh well .. god help his poor too much forhimself ammature soul... cuz he needs it...

speakin of which .. my other fren jus gotme upset.. chupse.... n im gettin a headache... i need sum icecream .. n sum tv.. uuuggggghh ... or a shopping spreee... go blow something..

toodles

Auto Biography

2009-02-05T10:07:00.000-08:00

Menellia Valcent
Autobiography

When I sit back and muse over the significant events in my past, the imperative aspects of my current life and my future goals, the underlying theme is one of appreciating diversity and accepting variance.

Menellia Valcent, (born February 3, 1986) best known as Menel or Mimi is my name.
I was born and partially raised in a single parent family in Saint Lucia as young child; and later with an extended family during my pre teenage years. As a young child I attended the Blanchard Combined School a primary school in the small community of Blanchard located in the south east of the island. During that time I unfortunately learned almost nothing about my self or the world as it stands, since I was never too keen about expressing myself, emotions or thoughts.

At the age of thirteen I migrated to the island of Antigua, to live with my mother and sisters. There i was enrolled into the Ottos Comprehensive Secondary School, which played out to be one of the most rewarding experiences of my teenage years. I believe it was there I learned to accept the fact that I was different, where I learned to embrace myself for who I am and where I learnt how to stand out from the conformity of a crowd. I was also blessed with finding my academic strengths (not that I wasn’t aware of it since I was always a straight A student), but I was given the tools to pursue them. However; I relocated back to St.Lucia to complete that last two years of my secondary school at the Micoud Secondary School and later on to study Biology and Sociology at the Vieux Fort Comprehensive Secondary School with the University of Cambridge. I believe that I grew more emotionally, socially and intellectually during these eight years of school than any other period of time thus far.

Although I currently hold a post of an Administrative Assistant at Agrico Ltd (Agricultural Consultancy & Technical Services Ltd) my main goal in life is to pursue a career in Psychology. I have endured the painful burden of migraine headaches in my young adult life, maybe because I think I have backtracked into restricting expression of what I feel both verbally and sometimes emotionally. Hence I have made great use of modern day technology by doing so in my blog, and also by just the maybe seemed weird random evaluation in my head. I strongly think that if I can help myself in that way I can do so with others, (point of career path).

I somewhat have obtained the label of being a semi intro/extrovert, and being weird because I like to keep to myself sometimes, and I have different interests than the typical Caribbean bred person. I spend maybe 90% of my free time listening to music (specifically alternative rock and pop), singing and watching cartoon shows. I also enjoy reading mystery novels because I like predicting what the outcome of the conclusion will be. I also enjoy play write texts such as Shakespeare and to date my favourite from him is the Twelfth Night, and favourite book is the Chrysalids by John Wyndham. I can watch a never ending rerun of the movie Troy and The Colour Purple, because of the messages portrayed. I have no favorite actress, actor, music groups or anything of the sort because I believe that everyone is equal no matter your socio economic or ethnic status in society, and that some just do things better than others and are not better than others.

My Greatest achievement to obtain is to become and succeed in what I set my heart out to do, no matter the obstacles. I would love to visit Greece someday (not Paris, or Italy or Rome) because I feel fascinated by their history and culture.

Benjamin Solomon Carson Sr. M.D. (1951) an African American neurosurgeon is one of the greatest influential characters in my life. Not because of his ethnic background but because of his past life and what he has achieved today. He is a constant reminder that I can do whatever I want to do and be whoever I want to be. Which is why I live by the phrase “…WHATEVER IT TAKES…”.Ultimately, I am what I choose to be; my self-esteem follows the same path.

Written by Menellia Valcent

rehearsal #1

2009-02-05T04:27:00.000-08:00

apparently i hv a good walk... however i have no hips.. hehe..jus asss.. lots of assss...hehe.... weeee... so yh ... outcome of the first rehearsal -good walk, need to push hips out more since im lacking ,n make poses tigher...so yh im gonna work on that n enjoy it to the max.. meanwhile i hv to get me sum blakc shorts... hmm sum shoppin rampage i hv to go unto now.. since its quite hard to get those here... sucks... im at work already ... n i hv nothing (work related ) to do as yet... but i hv this biography to work on so im gonna go do that now... so .. enjoy ur day ... n i will try to do mine... toodles yo!

p.s i still want the sexy wedge heels.. hmmph

February Begins::(lots of motivation running through my veins)

2009-02-04T05:09:00.003-08:00

i woke up smiling this mornin ... despite the fact that i went to bed late..i woke up very early ..suprisingly....went to see underworld last nite.. that was a sweeeet movie..hehe with alll the blood n vampires n werewolves...cool ... can't wait for the sequel... so yh like i was sayin ... woke up smiling... very bored today ...have absolutely nothing to do .. which is the ritual these days so im goin to spend my time learnn sumthing today... i stumbled across this blog (http://petitemodelingtips.blogspot.com with tips for petite modelling...very inspirational n wat not... but the girl(isobella jade) she sure is a talker.. lol ...n quite dicipline..(everyday blogging.. hmm i get a lil lazy sumtimes..)so i plan to follow her..tips n talks. n w.e (new mentor sumwat)....&& by the way i got my first rehersal today.. hmm can't wait to see how that goes...will revert to that tomoro ...hehe... && i;ve launch my exercising routine again ... im so lazy .. everytime i start i get distracted n i forget about it... sighhh ... but this mornin i woke up i did sum stuff so that shud keep me motivated (for a while).. i def wont join any gym....tooo i dunno ... meanwhile im waitin for my belly dancing,turbo jam & hip hop abs cds to get here... so i can really get into it... i love excersing but i haven't been doin it much lately because of change in work routine but ive got major time to spare now .. so im goin to use it wisely.. i give me 3 months to get that sexy tight stomach... hehe.. yay me... lol.. meanwhile im goin to listen to bella talk.... till i get tired of it.. hehe..

mimi

23rd birthday

2009-02-03T11:19:00.000-08:00

shut up & let me go.. hehe..ting tings....thats my bday song...this is the best bday ive ever remember having ... yay me..im all giddy like a lil school girl .. awwww.. blush .. gettin showered with gifts n all that ... hmm suprising so many ppl remembered...thanks to all you guys who did.. as for the others.. hmm welll then ... :p..and it keeps gettin better... sigggghhh (happy)

It's My Birthday ...hey hey hey hey

2009-02-03T05:01:00.001-08:00

Happy Birthday to me!!!

one more day..

2009-02-02T10:25:00.000-08:00

so its monday.. n i have barely accomplished anything today.. bummer huh ... well its not entirely my fault seeeing i hv nothin got to in the office... :S..guess i shud be happy but im not.. i hate havin my precious yrs wasted away... n pseakin of which i will a yr older tomro .. yay me...hehe... but i dunno wat im gonna do .. maybe jus stay home .. dats after i come from work do the usual ... bummer... im hopin mr b will com chec me.. he soo have sum makin up to do .... for the counltess blocks i hv been carrying... n im expecting gifts.. hehe.. who doesnt love gifts..w.e..meanwhile... we hv this party planned on sat ... yh yh yh.. which p.s im so not lookin forward to it.. :( im sooo weird... so yh .... n im here listenin to sum music to past the time by ... siggggghh ... guess i shud go find sum productive to do now huh ..ariverderci ppl ..

mimi

dancing...

2009-02-01T08:30:00.000-08:00

sooooo coooooolll this mornin i went to downlaod busy song( up in her belly)....then went to you tube it see if a vid was out... but nah... however i stumbled upon this other vid made by hannah herbertson(choreographer) soooo talented...it was so sweeeeet..i spent like an hour learnin the moves...hehe...very energetic...specially the poses in there..

hey hey hey..my month is here...:P

2009-01-31T20:05:00.000-08:00

it's offically the end of january..hehe...n my fav month has began...FEBURARY yay..lol...im up past midnight.. n so bored.. jus here listening to sum songs from a few newly discovered bands...they're pretty cool...kinda on the christian rock side(sanctus real,jeremy camp,flyleaf & fireflight) look them up..meanwhile.. family guy has jus stared..hehe..see u world.. im an addict as im sure maybe u r too .. :P

ps im out..

Lindsay Lohan

2009-01-30T07:36:00.000-08:00

Lindsay Lohan's father has begged her fans to "intervene" to save her life. Michael Lohan - who has previously publicly discussed his hatred of the 'Mean Girls' actress' girlfriend Samantha Ronson - claims Samantha is "destroying" the 22-year-old star's life, and is desperate for as many people as possible to try to convince her to leave the relationship.He wrote on his blog: "I am asking everyone out their to intervene in every way possible to help Lindsay, and quite possibly, save her life. Help this wonderful, good hearted and gifted young lady to see what SaMANtha is doing to her and how she is destroying her life."Help her to see that ever since SaMANtha came into her life, nothing good has come of it. As a matter of fact, Lindsay hasn't used her gifts like she did before meeting SaMANtha (sic)."Michael - who has previously branded Samantha,31, "controlling and manipulative" - adds Lindsay's life has taken a "dark turn" since she became involved with the DJ, and even claims Samantha forced Lindsay to "abandon" her 15-year-old sister Ali in Los Angeles.Referring to reports the couple had split earlier this year, he wrote:"After seeing promise and thanking God for Lindsay's freedom from SaMANtha's bondage, I see now, that since SaMANtha has once again, weaseled her way back into Lindsay's life, things have taken a dark turn."While I was enthused that Ali was with Lindsay, rather than SaMANtha, I am torn to see that SaMANtha has once again manipulated Lindsay into leaving her little sister in Los Angeles, only to join SaMANtha on another DJ gig in Boston (sic

january rain...

2009-01-30T06:52:00.001-08:00

hmmph.. so this mornin i woke up..pissed cause it was rainin heavily...not that i dnt like it sumtimes, but i was so not lookin forward to walkin under an umbrella..(they so dnt do their jobs rite).n speakin of which for a tropical region the rainy season so dnt pay attention to the rules (june to november not january onwards).....uggh..so .. yh ready to leave house, it seized...aha..got to the bus stop, n the most horrible thing happened.(no a bus didnt splash water on me..lol...lol )it began pouring heavily, with no preceding warnings, n being so rude it brought its friend mr wind.. UGHHHH ... i was sooo pissed, got a bus, got a lil wet, yh umbrella still didnt do its job properly... so her i am thinkin .. oh well . i hope it seizes by the time im ready to get off... so liel 2 mins b4 gettin of fi got my wish, n it was then rudely taken away... so i had to walk a good five mins fightin with this rain n not coporating umbrella. by the time i got to my office i was soaked,up to my thighs, mind u im wearin jeans.. so like since im goin home for the weekend,i had a top n a short skirt in my extra bag,hmm thinkin should i wear it, so inappropriate, but i wont be sittin in wet jeans all day(speakin of which they are still wet)asked sum staff memebers is they have any skirts or jeans or wraps in the office since they do photo shoots n all that shate in the studio.,&& can u imagin they didnt....like wat kind of business is this.. ... sooo being miss innovative i decided to wear the top as a skirt.. yay me.. but is so clashes, cuz i have this gothic look from head to waist n then this bohemian chic look waist down.. it so funny sumwat though.. lol .. but im still pissed.. n i cant wait for my jeans to dry up.. chupse.. meanwhile im still bored., i practically have nothin to do , so im here listenin to enrique inglesias && ricky martin... maybe i will end up dancin around the office.. hehe..

xoxo...mimi

persistence is key..

2009-01-29T05:39:00.000-08:00

so yesterday i attended this scheduled meeting with siotage fashion house of advanced models,after the long hours of contemplating wheter or not i shud go....i did..and gladly didnt regret it. I am short which is one of the reasons i never did anything of the sort, but like they said, you got to work extremely hard to gain wat u want.so now im currently goin to be walkin around the house in heels more than usual , hehe(weird act huh ), you know get used to the increasing heights(inches) which will be growin over time. but its for an imperative cause,for myself. meanwhile i hv a terrible migraine, and desperately in need of a new head or something else as sum ppl seem to be assuming rite now.. haha..oh yh .. &&& im tryin to coax my fren into buyin me these mega cute wedges ...(omg).... so sexxxxxiii ....focusin now... & im still at work, hardly workin ..sumtimes i wonder why im even here, i could be home rite now resting n easin the pain off my pounding skull....but nooooooo....managers seem to think that ure not human....sigh sigh sigh....well im jus gonna take a nap here, advantage of havin ur won office.. hehe..segregated from practically all other staff.. toodles.

xoxo mimi

so far..so not soo interesting..

2009-01-26T05:06:00.000-08:00

so its the last eek in january..thank the lord.. cuz i seriously need to get out of this broke phase ive been in for the past month ...TERRRIBLE...n my bday is cummin up...yay me...hmm dunno wat im gonna do as yet..maybe order sum pizza n stay home.. i neva anticipate fun events at that time.. n i def dnt make plans in the event they get messed up... so the past weekend has been the most boring ever... ever...ever... i mean seriously...oh gosh ..all i did was watch tv...lifetime,reruns of zoey 101...lol... n this funny n touching african american movie..the coulour purple... (u shud see whoopi in this she is so weird && funny)...that was the only upside i guess...oh yh n mr b whitfeild finally passed his butt to see me ..after countless ummm stones...lol.. that nite was funny too...even though i was the one gettin the jokes..its alll good..n did sum laundry, n omg.... i washed my hair yh...hehe.. n it has like this mass of growth... tried straightenin it numerous times... to get that passable look .. i mean i hv to go to work... n the salon aint seein me till sat..god my head hurts...my hair is so hard .. lol ..sigh.....such is life.. so yh .. uh ...work is rather boring this time of yr.. nun much to do ... we havent gotten any new projects.. n recenlty wrapped up the last one .. bout two weeks ago.. so its jus me n theoffice.. n free online movies....:)...its cool at times.. but non the less i would rather be doin sumthin more contructive with my time... so i decided to look into an online course.. found sum cool ones... im lookin into .. but i feel lazy ..n indicipled..hehe..but i will tackle it..n im still lookin at my options here for uni...meanwhile.. im still bored... lol.. ttul..

xoxox mimi

boring day

2009-01-20T06:06:00.001-08:00

work sucks....boringgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg